Living through the storms of life,
One day at a time.
Sailing through clouds and thunder,
In the river of my mind.
One day I met God,
And he asked me.
He said "Son, what is it,
That you wanna be?"
I said "Lord you knew me,
Before I met me."
I said "Lord what is it,
that you want me to be?"
He said "Love me,
And I'll show you what's best for you.
Forgive and be forgiven,
It's all up to you."
Christopher Goat
Christopher Goat
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Mother's Heart
An angel held me,
In her arms so true.
A mother with purity
A love so true.
Survived a storm,
And lived to survive.
Courage in her heart,
Strength in her eyes.
Unconditional love,
For all of us to receive,
Unconditional love,
For all of us to believe,
In a Mother's Heart.
In her arms so true.
A mother with purity
A love so true.
Survived a storm,
And lived to survive.
Courage in her heart,
Strength in her eyes.
Unconditional love,
For all of us to receive,
Unconditional love,
For all of us to believe,
In a Mother's Heart.
Take Me Home
Of all you've taught me,
Was from your heart.
I thank the Heavens,
You've known right from the start.
Just how much you mean to me,
Just how much you care.
Forgiveness in your heart,
With so much love to bare-
Take me home.
Teach me O' Father,
What I'm supposed to do.
I lose my way,
Then you know exactly what to do.
Was from your heart.
I thank the Heavens,
You've known right from the start.
Just how much you mean to me,
Just how much you care.
Forgiveness in your heart,
With so much love to bare-
Take me home.
Teach me O' Father,
What I'm supposed to do.
I lose my way,
Then you know exactly what to do.
Lost Souls
Where was your love?
When you found me there,
In the dead of night.
Unformed bones,
Have broken our love.
A lonely heart,
Has been taken.
Can you hear her?
Can you hear her cry,
Beneath your skin?
Can you feel her?
Can you feel her pain,
From the blood in your veins?
Demon butterflies,
Across your eyes.
Peering into,
Mother madness.
Sinful souls,
Unfold the mirrors.
And we see them,
In our sleep.
And she sings to me...
Darkness has fallen,
In your eyes I know,
Your desperate love,
Withers away.
God save us,
From these lost souls.
When you found me there,
In the dead of night.
Unformed bones,
Have broken our love.
A lonely heart,
Has been taken.
Can you hear her?
Can you hear her cry,
Beneath your skin?
Can you feel her?
Can you feel her pain,
From the blood in your veins?
Demon butterflies,
Across your eyes.
Peering into,
Mother madness.
Sinful souls,
Unfold the mirrors.
And we see them,
In our sleep.
And she sings to me...
Darkness has fallen,
In your eyes I know,
Your desperate love,
Withers away.
God save us,
From these lost souls.
Rise Again
I see the light as it grows so dark,
And you fade away.
I think the sun will rise again,
As you turn away.
Feeding the beast,
Whatever he hungers for.
Tasting forever,
Searching for the door.
Slide down your black rainbow,
And leave me alone,
With my own reality.
Knowing you,
Were here to see.
Wishing your existence,
Would never be.
Rise again,
I was knocking at your door,
And I hunted for you.
And you fade away.
I think the sun will rise again,
As you turn away.
Feeding the beast,
Whatever he hungers for.
Tasting forever,
Searching for the door.
Slide down your black rainbow,
And leave me alone,
With my own reality.
Knowing you,
Were here to see.
Wishing your existence,
Would never be.
Rise again,
I was knocking at your door,
And I hunted for you.
Dying Dear
As the morning sunlight hits my face,
My dreams lie closer when I'm awake.
I bring to you my darkest fear,
To shed more light on why I'm here.
I bring to you my only choice,
I scream to you in this lonely voice.
I scream to you I have no choice,
I scream to you I have no choice.
Craving, crying, dying to breathe again.
Dying to breathe again.
Death is dreaming of my soul again,
Darkness is dancing, my only friend.
I cry to you can I be saved,
You laugh again and I awake.
My darkest hour I shall fear,
So say to me as you draw near.
You will live again my dying dear,
You will live again my dying dear.
My dreams lie closer when I'm awake.
I bring to you my darkest fear,
To shed more light on why I'm here.
I bring to you my only choice,
I scream to you in this lonely voice.
I scream to you I have no choice,
I scream to you I have no choice.
Craving, crying, dying to breathe again.
Dying to breathe again.
Death is dreaming of my soul again,
Darkness is dancing, my only friend.
I cry to you can I be saved,
You laugh again and I awake.
My darkest hour I shall fear,
So say to me as you draw near.
You will live again my dying dear,
You will live again my dying dear.
Myrtles Garden
Lady in the tower,
With the nightmares at your feet.
Sunlight on your face,
I can hear you call my name.
Traveling so far away,
This is where we meet.
In Myrtles Garden,
Dancing beneath the trees.
In Myrtles Garden we danced..
Dragonflies above us,
Kissing where we meet.
Last night I heard you cry alone,
Weeping for your broken heart.
And still I feel you next to me,
Whispering a gentle song.
The wind gently sighed,
And the leaves fell like rain.
In Myrtles Garden we danced...
And I felt your spirit so close to me,
I can hear you whisper in my ear.
We danced the night away...
My heart is in your hands once again,
My sweet angel.
With the nightmares at your feet.
Sunlight on your face,
I can hear you call my name.
Traveling so far away,
This is where we meet.
In Myrtles Garden,
Dancing beneath the trees.
In Myrtles Garden we danced..
Dragonflies above us,
Kissing where we meet.
Last night I heard you cry alone,
Weeping for your broken heart.
And still I feel you next to me,
Whispering a gentle song.
The wind gently sighed,
And the leaves fell like rain.
In Myrtles Garden we danced...
And I felt your spirit so close to me,
I can hear you whisper in my ear.
We danced the night away...
My heart is in your hands once again,
My sweet angel.
Ghost of an Indian Girl
Indian girl,
Wipe the blood from your hands.
Take me from my grave,
Dust the love from my bones.
The moon and the stars ignite,
From the fire in our hearts.
And I've waited for you...
Praying for the reign,
High upon this temple.
She was cast down by her gods,
But her bones are pure and simple.
Indian Girl,
Wipe the blood from your hands.
Open your heart to the sky,
Take me from my grave.
The sky grows colder now,
I miss you tonight.
I've waited until you found me.
I feel your spirit around me...
Wipe the blood from your hands.
Take me from my grave,
Dust the love from my bones.
The moon and the stars ignite,
From the fire in our hearts.
And I've waited for you...
Praying for the reign,
High upon this temple.
She was cast down by her gods,
But her bones are pure and simple.
Indian Girl,
Wipe the blood from your hands.
Open your heart to the sky,
Take me from my grave.
The sky grows colder now,
I miss you tonight.
I've waited until you found me.
I feel your spirit around me...
20 K
Shotgun dayglow,
Chaotic pistol.
Coming outta my brain,
Coming outta my brain.
Fully loaded,
Fully exploded.
All outta my brain,
All outta my brain.
Cab ride under the sea,
Twenty thousand leagues into my heart.
Cab ride under the sea,
Twenty thousand leagues ito my heart.
Daylight has broken across this,
River of madness.
Day break brings another,
Morning it seems.
The silence is broken,
The silence is broken.
Chaotic pistol.
Coming outta my brain,
Coming outta my brain.
Fully loaded,
Fully exploded.
All outta my brain,
All outta my brain.
Cab ride under the sea,
Twenty thousand leagues into my heart.
Cab ride under the sea,
Twenty thousand leagues ito my heart.
Daylight has broken across this,
River of madness.
Day break brings another,
Morning it seems.
The silence is broken,
The silence is broken.
Awake Dream
I dreamt I walked alone,
In the distance lay my desolate home.
I trembled for a moment,
As you take me,
All eyes are closed.
Cry with me,
Die with me tonight.
I dreamt I walked with you,
Your hot hands will cover my bones.
Kiss me again and again,
I said drown me,
With your sweet love tonight.
Cry with me,
Die with me tonight.
Madness taken,
God forsaken,
Misbehaving again.
Mend this rage in my head,
Words we have said,
In my dreams I sing to you,
We were all dead.
Whisper my name,
When your in his arms,
Dance with me tonight.
Whisper my name,
When your in his arms,
And dance one more time.
Tonight.
In the distance lay my desolate home.
I trembled for a moment,
As you take me,
All eyes are closed.
Cry with me,
Die with me tonight.
I dreamt I walked with you,
Your hot hands will cover my bones.
Kiss me again and again,
I said drown me,
With your sweet love tonight.
Cry with me,
Die with me tonight.
Madness taken,
God forsaken,
Misbehaving again.
Mend this rage in my head,
Words we have said,
In my dreams I sing to you,
We were all dead.
Whisper my name,
When your in his arms,
Dance with me tonight.
Whisper my name,
When your in his arms,
And dance one more time.
Tonight.
Paintings
Innocence faded,
Melted in the flames.
Spirits they were jaded,
These houses can't contain.
Bleeding tears,
Captured in the frame.
An angry child,
An orphan with no name.
In his burning heart,
His burning soul.
It haunts your head,
And leaves you cold.
Hanging upside down,
Spinning 'round and 'round.
The smoke rises up,
And covers you with a crown.
Let your fire fall, fire fall.
Melted in the flames.
Spirits they were jaded,
These houses can't contain.
Bleeding tears,
Captured in the frame.
An angry child,
An orphan with no name.
In his burning heart,
His burning soul.
It haunts your head,
And leaves you cold.
Hanging upside down,
Spinning 'round and 'round.
The smoke rises up,
And covers you with a crown.
Let your fire fall, fire fall.
Diamond In The Ruff
Like the stars in the sky
I see the light, I see the light
In your eyes.
Like the winds of time
I feel alive, I feel alive
In your eyes.
Diamond in the ruff,
Uncovered by your sweet love.
The volcanoes of love
In your heart, in your heart
From above.
The endless love
I see the fire, I see the fire
In your eyes.
I see the light, I see the light
In your eyes.
Like the winds of time
I feel alive, I feel alive
In your eyes.
Diamond in the ruff,
Uncovered by your sweet love.
The volcanoes of love
In your heart, in your heart
From above.
The endless love
I see the fire, I see the fire
In your eyes.
Resurrection
The dead shall rise,
The dead shall walk.
I've seen the light,
And now I talk.
The trump' shall sound,
The waves will crash.
Dust to dust,
Ash to ash.
The dawn will bring a new day.
My Father's Spirit will say,
"Open your heart my friend,
Let me pour my Love in."
The dead shall walk.
I've seen the light,
And now I talk.
The trump' shall sound,
The waves will crash.
Dust to dust,
Ash to ash.
The dawn will bring a new day.
My Father's Spirit will say,
"Open your heart my friend,
Let me pour my Love in."
Ghost In The Corner
There's a ghost in the corner of this room,
In a place where all hope was left behind.
Traveled all the way from Mexico,
Because he was shot down dead in the night.
Let the bones dance at midnight.
Let the banes cry by starlight.
There's a ghost in the corner of this room,
In a place where all hope was left behind.
We used to be cold simpaticos,
Now he wanders through the cold of the night.
In a place where all hope was left behind.
Traveled all the way from Mexico,
Because he was shot down dead in the night.
Let the bones dance at midnight.
Let the banes cry by starlight.
There's a ghost in the corner of this room,
In a place where all hope was left behind.
We used to be cold simpaticos,
Now he wanders through the cold of the night.
Friday, December 20, 2013
Look Ahead
Now look ahead,
Where the roads have led,
And dreams have come true.
The love you share,
Will conquer all despair,
And keep you strong,
Here on after.
Where the roads have led,
And dreams have come true.
The love you share,
Will conquer all despair,
And keep you strong,
Here on after.
Caress
Red sadness,
In this desolate madness,
I thirst-
For another soul.
Filling the voids,
Of a black heart.
With a gentle,
Caress of your lips,
The nightmare ends.
In this desolate madness,
I thirst-
For another soul.
Filling the voids,
Of a black heart.
With a gentle,
Caress of your lips,
The nightmare ends.
We Dance Alone
Your heart is racing,
Your blood is pumping.
Our sweat is so sweet,
As we join this love together.
Our eyes are entranced,
Our lives are enhanced.
As we dance alone,
In this vivid night forever.
In a glance,
We dance again.
In my stare,
I'll take you there-
Where two hearts have loved once more.
Your blood is pumping.
Our sweat is so sweet,
As we join this love together.
Our eyes are entranced,
Our lives are enhanced.
As we dance alone,
In this vivid night forever.
In a glance,
We dance again.
In my stare,
I'll take you there-
Where two hearts have loved once more.
Reflections
Drifting through the memories,
Of a life so deeply intertwined.
Faded past,
The smoke and broken mirrors.
I tell this lonely tale...
Crashing waves pass through the sea,
As close to you as to me.
I couldn't save us from drowning,
In the shallow pools of bitter tongues.
Danced in the reflection of our skies,
We loved.
Without a smile for me,
I couldn't be free,
From the heavenly prisons,
Embodied around you and me.
And through the rivers of sin we glided,
As sharks do in the night,
When they hunt their prey.
Only to choke on the smoke,
Of the burning fire set ablaze,
In the Garden of Eden.
After the serpent cast it's gaze,
Into the eyes of Eve.
Entrancing her to dance,
in her sinful silk and lace,
And bringing a grin,
To the faces of the unholy one.
Torn is her heart,
Death is her love.
She chances her will,
With no guilt from above.
And paradise is closed to you and I,
Forever we will live only to die.
Of a life so deeply intertwined.
Faded past,
The smoke and broken mirrors.
I tell this lonely tale...
Crashing waves pass through the sea,
As close to you as to me.
I couldn't save us from drowning,
In the shallow pools of bitter tongues.
Danced in the reflection of our skies,
We loved.
Without a smile for me,
I couldn't be free,
From the heavenly prisons,
Embodied around you and me.
And through the rivers of sin we glided,
As sharks do in the night,
When they hunt their prey.
Only to choke on the smoke,
Of the burning fire set ablaze,
In the Garden of Eden.
After the serpent cast it's gaze,
Into the eyes of Eve.
Entrancing her to dance,
in her sinful silk and lace,
And bringing a grin,
To the faces of the unholy one.
Torn is her heart,
Death is her love.
She chances her will,
With no guilt from above.
And paradise is closed to you and I,
Forever we will live only to die.
Madman In The Mirror
I've seen the future,
In my dreams.
The skeptic vision,
Entranced me.
Those falling stars,
Crashed on the earth.
And melted the earth,
Of the dreamers at work.
I'm laughing harder,
At the reaper now,
And riding faster,
From these broken vows.
It's on my lips,
On the tip of my tongue.
This sharpened sword,
From the mouth of the Son.
Madman in the mirror,
Trancing his presence again.
Watching his soul depart,
And filled with shadows within.
In my dreams.
The skeptic vision,
Entranced me.
Those falling stars,
Crashed on the earth.
And melted the earth,
Of the dreamers at work.
I'm laughing harder,
At the reaper now,
And riding faster,
From these broken vows.
It's on my lips,
On the tip of my tongue.
This sharpened sword,
From the mouth of the Son.
Madman in the mirror,
Trancing his presence again.
Watching his soul depart,
And filled with shadows within.
Soul of Indigo
Mere words cannot fill,
The endless hole in my heart.
My sorrow overcomes my eyes.
The silence is shouting.
This pen won't write the memories.
I have found only loneliness,
Adrift in my dreams.
Frustrated full of hate,
Burnt from love's fire.
Consumed and smoldered in the dark night.
I lie awake each night,
Wandering, when is it my turn to die?
Why must I be dragged through life-
By the hair on my head?
Why can nothing good stay around me?
What is this curse put upon me?
Who put it there? Will it end?
I'm tired of fighting- fighting for happiness,
Fighting for love, when can it just be over?
When can I enjoy this life?
Seems to be dark,
Seems to be ending soon-
I dream.
The endless hole in my heart.
My sorrow overcomes my eyes.
The silence is shouting.
This pen won't write the memories.
I have found only loneliness,
Adrift in my dreams.
Frustrated full of hate,
Burnt from love's fire.
Consumed and smoldered in the dark night.
I lie awake each night,
Wandering, when is it my turn to die?
Why must I be dragged through life-
By the hair on my head?
Why can nothing good stay around me?
What is this curse put upon me?
Who put it there? Will it end?
I'm tired of fighting- fighting for happiness,
Fighting for love, when can it just be over?
When can I enjoy this life?
Seems to be dark,
Seems to be ending soon-
I dream.
Dreamer
There once was a dreamer, who loved his clouds, so blue.
A mere thought of another, how lovely she was.
Stranded in ecstasy, for a moment in time.
A lover's caper will soon be mine for the giving.
All that we are and all that I am is eternity.
Sinners, lovers, and givers compose yet not enough-
Of what we call life, and to be expected.
How far would you travel to kiss me for the last time?
Touch my soul with the caress of your lips,
And gently say goodnight.
To the one and only who ever believed in you.
More so than myself,
Yet never a ripple in the waters of creation.
Blue lights and best friends die.
I was never clever to the tongue amidst the human,
The pen shall reap my mind.
For some taste of the future and distortion of the past.
Prevalent is change and good,
But matrimony is the beginning to the end of the beginning.
A new cloud to emerse our existence-
Among the cave dwellers.
A mere thought of another, how lovely she was.
Stranded in ecstasy, for a moment in time.
A lover's caper will soon be mine for the giving.
All that we are and all that I am is eternity.
Sinners, lovers, and givers compose yet not enough-
Of what we call life, and to be expected.
How far would you travel to kiss me for the last time?
Touch my soul with the caress of your lips,
And gently say goodnight.
To the one and only who ever believed in you.
More so than myself,
Yet never a ripple in the waters of creation.
Blue lights and best friends die.
I was never clever to the tongue amidst the human,
The pen shall reap my mind.
For some taste of the future and distortion of the past.
Prevalent is change and good,
But matrimony is the beginning to the end of the beginning.
A new cloud to emerse our existence-
Among the cave dwellers.
The Omega Morning
I have come for your soul,
I am here for your soul.
So you'll never be alone,
So you'll never be alone.
Seven black trumpets,
Played their song for me.
Seven angry spirits,
Shed their light unto thee.
This burning black night,
Will drown the faithful moon.
This death in your sight,
Will bleed our love dry.
I walked through the darkness,
With your eyes in my hand.
This burning black love,
Will cradle the universe again.
A touch of God's sadness,
All of you will see.
Slaves to the devil's madness,
Omega morning arise...arise.
Omega morning....
Arise, arise, arise with me.
Babylon baby is fallen,
Souls of the wicked are crawlin'.
The beast will be....
The widow of the night.
All will see...
The touch of God.
I am here for your soul.
So you'll never be alone,
So you'll never be alone.
Seven black trumpets,
Played their song for me.
Seven angry spirits,
Shed their light unto thee.
This burning black night,
Will drown the faithful moon.
This death in your sight,
Will bleed our love dry.
I walked through the darkness,
With your eyes in my hand.
This burning black love,
Will cradle the universe again.
A touch of God's sadness,
All of you will see.
Slaves to the devil's madness,
Omega morning arise...arise.
Omega morning....
Arise, arise, arise with me.
Babylon baby is fallen,
Souls of the wicked are crawlin'.
The beast will be....
The widow of the night.
All will see...
The touch of God.
Soulful Madness
The pale moon above my head,
Warms my soul tonight.
The only friend I have,
Who will listen as I sing.
My songs of madness,
And of my breaking heart.
And of unspoken love,
And desolate starts.
My unworthy soul,
That turned into crimson red.
Those unending nights,
When I wished I were dead.
Just a step away,
From the house of redemption.
Just a breathe away,
From the sound of forgiveness.
I die each night for you,
For the prisons I put you in.
Tearing my heart apart,
Then mending it with your love.
Warms my soul tonight.
The only friend I have,
Who will listen as I sing.
My songs of madness,
And of my breaking heart.
And of unspoken love,
And desolate starts.
My unworthy soul,
That turned into crimson red.
Those unending nights,
When I wished I were dead.
Just a step away,
From the house of redemption.
Just a breathe away,
From the sound of forgiveness.
I die each night for you,
For the prisons I put you in.
Tearing my heart apart,
Then mending it with your love.
The Battleground
Wipe the blood from your hands,
And the dirt from your smile.
Over and over and over you wash,
Left over, no lover for you to love.
Particular and patient, remove the dirt,
Dirt from your hands and evil from your heart.
Can you see the remnants of what you were?
Can you see the forgiveness,
At the base of your bones?
Over and over and over you scrub,
The blood away, let it wash away.
Frozen in time, an instant you knew,
The life of others ended so blue.
Their lips that were, so subtle and rich,
Filled with deceit, hate, and more of your trip.
Over and over and over you stare,
Into the mirror and see your despair.
Every flaw and imperfection brought a new,
Understanding of souls and their talisman too.
And the dirt from your smile.
Over and over and over you wash,
Left over, no lover for you to love.
Particular and patient, remove the dirt,
Dirt from your hands and evil from your heart.
Can you see the remnants of what you were?
Can you see the forgiveness,
At the base of your bones?
Over and over and over you scrub,
The blood away, let it wash away.
Frozen in time, an instant you knew,
The life of others ended so blue.
Their lips that were, so subtle and rich,
Filled with deceit, hate, and more of your trip.
Over and over and over you stare,
Into the mirror and see your despair.
Every flaw and imperfection brought a new,
Understanding of souls and their talisman too.
To Forgive
Jealousy has broken this rampant love.
Once like a dove, pure and free.
A serpent, so powerful, came to me.
Spoke kind words and convinced me to be,
Something I'm not, something I hate.
Nevermore broken hearted, so departed,
My love for the world, but mostly myself.
I must remove the hate,
From this old dusty shelf.
Kept from afar- away from you,
You never knew,
or so I told myself.
It all seems unreal,
The dream I never wanted to have,
The mistakes I never wanted to make,
The love I never wanted to break.
Beginning again-
Starting from the end of us all.
Death of love, birth of hate.
Where can all of the sinners wait?
For you to join me,
Or so I know you did,
I learned that when I was a kid,
Give what you get,
Get what you give-
Hopefully we're all strong enough-
To Forgive.
Once like a dove, pure and free.
A serpent, so powerful, came to me.
Spoke kind words and convinced me to be,
Something I'm not, something I hate.
Nevermore broken hearted, so departed,
My love for the world, but mostly myself.
I must remove the hate,
From this old dusty shelf.
Kept from afar- away from you,
You never knew,
or so I told myself.
It all seems unreal,
The dream I never wanted to have,
The mistakes I never wanted to make,
The love I never wanted to break.
Beginning again-
Starting from the end of us all.
Death of love, birth of hate.
Where can all of the sinners wait?
For you to join me,
Or so I know you did,
I learned that when I was a kid,
Give what you get,
Get what you give-
Hopefully we're all strong enough-
To Forgive.
Voices
Hey there, over you
Someone is smiling in the dark
Kissing the burning flame
Wreaking of awaited death
Hey there, can you see you
Talking to me tomorrow
Your soul, he will let me borrow
Another kiss for your brain
Dripping wet from the night sweat
Daylight brings another regret
Mourning sings goodbye mother night
Help us save you
Listen to us again
Look through the mirror
See whose really not there
Terror Terror, but beware of the one
Who sings to your soul by night
And chants to the demons of fright
Wishes granted to those who pray to them.
Someone is smiling in the dark
Kissing the burning flame
Wreaking of awaited death
Hey there, can you see you
Talking to me tomorrow
Your soul, he will let me borrow
Another kiss for your brain
Dripping wet from the night sweat
Daylight brings another regret
Mourning sings goodbye mother night
Help us save you
Listen to us again
Look through the mirror
See whose really not there
Terror Terror, but beware of the one
Who sings to your soul by night
And chants to the demons of fright
Wishes granted to those who pray to them.
Stolen
Lay me down my love, kiss me once
For the times I made you happy.
Lay me down my love, kiss me again
For the times I made you cry.
Hold my hand my love, so gently
For the times I held yours.
Caress my heart my love, so sweetly
For I loved you more than I.
Steal my soul my love, so quickly
For no one else has the power over me.
Gently weep my love, so sadly
For me body has met another.
Slowly pray me love, so truly
For my mistress has come.
She's taken me my love, so soon
For I will miss you greatly.
I love you my love, so completely
For no other will I wait for.
For the times I made you happy.
Lay me down my love, kiss me again
For the times I made you cry.
Hold my hand my love, so gently
For the times I held yours.
Caress my heart my love, so sweetly
For I loved you more than I.
Steal my soul my love, so quickly
For no one else has the power over me.
Gently weep my love, so sadly
For me body has met another.
Slowly pray me love, so truly
For my mistress has come.
She's taken me my love, so soon
For I will miss you greatly.
I love you my love, so completely
For no other will I wait for.
Creeping Back
I find myself,
Creeping back again.
I know it now,
Reaching for the end.
Death has told myself,
I'm your friend.
Whispered in my ear,
I will see you again.
Death is only dreaming of you.
The silence here after is so new.
I awake to find my soul so blue.
The stars in this night have come true.
Creeping back again.
I know it now,
Reaching for the end.
Death has told myself,
I'm your friend.
Whispered in my ear,
I will see you again.
Death is only dreaming of you.
The silence here after is so new.
I awake to find my soul so blue.
The stars in this night have come true.
Levee Beneath Us
Bones of broken men,
Seep into the slivers,
Of shattered human homes.
Blood feeds the vines,
Hanging from these pines.
Souls of the wicked one,
Hide beneath the levee tree.
Awaken the one,
Who denies the sun,
And forever entrances,
Those who dance with him.
Circle me now,
Chant with me now,
Rise with me.
Seep into the slivers,
Of shattered human homes.
Blood feeds the vines,
Hanging from these pines.
Souls of the wicked one,
Hide beneath the levee tree.
Awaken the one,
Who denies the sun,
And forever entrances,
Those who dance with him.
Circle me now,
Chant with me now,
Rise with me.
Death's Lullaby
The raven sings,
The madness rings,
Up in the belfry,
He has something to tell me...
Broken by the words I've spoken,
Your black heart will taste my love.
Scraping the ashes from my eyes,
Draining the hate from my heart.
And whisper through the light,
Open your eyes into the night.
Gathering spirits hear my cry,
As we sing death's lullaby.
And she cries, nevermore,
As I creep, up to her door.
Calling madness to my door,
Letting the light look in.
Blinding my fright here in,
I taste your heart once more.
As I open the chamber door,
There was darkness there,
And nothing more.
The madness rings,
Up in the belfry,
He has something to tell me...
Broken by the words I've spoken,
Your black heart will taste my love.
Scraping the ashes from my eyes,
Draining the hate from my heart.
And whisper through the light,
Open your eyes into the night.
Gathering spirits hear my cry,
As we sing death's lullaby.
And she cries, nevermore,
As I creep, up to her door.
Calling madness to my door,
Letting the light look in.
Blinding my fright here in,
I taste your heart once more.
As I open the chamber door,
There was darkness there,
And nothing more.
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Pilgrim Shadow
A word or two unspoken
Left to a ride of misfortune
Left in search of a man
Who's life fell beneath the sand
Quick and painless as though he might
Be fearful on this lonesome night
But riding on is where he intends
The rest of his life he will spend
Pilgrim shadow
Where can it be?
Pilgrim shadow
Why can't I see?
Left to a ride of misfortune
Left in search of a man
Who's life fell beneath the sand
Quick and painless as though he might
Be fearful on this lonesome night
But riding on is where he intends
The rest of his life he will spend
Pilgrim shadow
Where can it be?
Pilgrim shadow
Why can't I see?
Three Moons To Go
Only three moons to go
'Till we see the end
Hip hip hooray
For it's all gonna end
'Bout time for some justice
'Bout time for revenge
'Bout time for revolution
So come and jump right in
Jump in, jump in
Let us begin
Jump in, jump in
It's all gonna end
'Till we see the end
Hip hip hooray
For it's all gonna end
'Bout time for some justice
'Bout time for revenge
'Bout time for revolution
So come and jump right in
Jump in, jump in
Let us begin
Jump in, jump in
It's all gonna end
Falling
So fast you come to me
Breathing your entity
What more can I do to
Deepen your love for me
So fast we fall into
Something safe
Numb me now
Can embrace forever
Kiss your face
Cry with me
And down we go
Into the little hole
We call home
And we fall.....
Breathing your entity
What more can I do to
Deepen your love for me
So fast we fall into
Something safe
Numb me now
Can embrace forever
Kiss your face
Cry with me
And down we go
Into the little hole
We call home
And we fall.....
White Smoke Crawlin'
White smoke crawlin'
Black water crying
I'm gonna find a way
To get back to you
Trip death while dancing
Two lovers entrancing
Kiss the night sky
One more time again
This heart bleeds
Black love tonight
This heart needs
To end this night
Drifting down
This blue wall of sadness
Doing everything I can
To keep away the madness
Your demons claw
Desperately at my soul
Out of the darkness
Will my future unfold
Black water crying
I'm gonna find a way
To get back to you
Trip death while dancing
Two lovers entrancing
Kiss the night sky
One more time again
This heart bleeds
Black love tonight
This heart needs
To end this night
Drifting down
This blue wall of sadness
Doing everything I can
To keep away the madness
Your demons claw
Desperately at my soul
Out of the darkness
Will my future unfold
A Wake Dream
I dreamt I walked alone
In the darkness lay me desolate home
I trembled for a moment
As you take me, All eyes are closed
Cry with me
Die with me tonight
I dreamt I danced alone
Cold hand will cover my bones
Kiss me again and again
Drown me with your bleeding heart
Cry with me
Die with me tonight
Madness taken
God forsaken
Misbehavings again
Mend this Rage in my head
Words we have said
In my dreams I sing to you
We are all dead
Whisper my name
Dance with me tonight
In the darkness lay me desolate home
I trembled for a moment
As you take me, All eyes are closed
Cry with me
Die with me tonight
I dreamt I danced alone
Cold hand will cover my bones
Kiss me again and again
Drown me with your bleeding heart
Cry with me
Die with me tonight
Madness taken
God forsaken
Misbehavings again
Mend this Rage in my head
Words we have said
In my dreams I sing to you
We are all dead
Whisper my name
Dance with me tonight
My Cold Room
Blackened spirit
Trembles beneath
Apart of me
Touched again
As it flies above
As I turn to you
I breathe again
In silence with you
Trembles beneath
Apart of me
Touched again
As it flies above
As I turn to you
I breathe again
In silence with you
Dreaming
Dreaming of you when I'm awake
I'm falling faster than my eyes can take
I sleep here waiting for you
Breathing in this moment forever
I have found my Heaven
Inside your eyes, so blue
Floating beneath your angel wings
To the sky I can only sing
Mending this broken heart tonight
Keep me safe and warm inside
Dreaming of....my lover's heart.
I'm falling faster than my eyes can take
I sleep here waiting for you
Breathing in this moment forever
I have found my Heaven
Inside your eyes, so blue
Floating beneath your angel wings
To the sky I can only sing
Mending this broken heart tonight
Keep me safe and warm inside
Dreaming of....my lover's heart.
Back To Nothing
I sit on an empty box,
In my corner of the room.
Remnance of what you were,
And what we used to share.
How everything was so perfect,
So perfectly in place.
How did we get to nothing?
Nothing in this room,
Could bring you back to me.
How did we get to nothing?
You said I was the perfect,
One and only in my life.
I had my life complete,
With you as my wife.
I guess I should have seen,
What I didn't have to give.
Was it the power, pain, or fortune
That he deserves- to forgive?
No.
In my corner of the room.
Remnance of what you were,
And what we used to share.
How everything was so perfect,
So perfectly in place.
How did we get to nothing?
Nothing in this room,
Could bring you back to me.
How did we get to nothing?
You said I was the perfect,
One and only in my life.
I had my life complete,
With you as my wife.
I guess I should have seen,
What I didn't have to give.
Was it the power, pain, or fortune
That he deserves- to forgive?
No.
Oceans Apart
I found love today
Creeping beneath my floor
I walked a mile away
But never opened the door
I ran into myself
And cried to be no more
Black ink in this mocking bird's heart
The sadness lives, when shall we part
In shadows I hide
My deepest of loves
In darkness I lay
Breathing you in from above
This silence I fear
Fading faster since love
Black ink in this mocking bird's heart
Show me forever and keep us apart
Creeping beneath my floor
I walked a mile away
But never opened the door
I ran into myself
And cried to be no more
Black ink in this mocking bird's heart
The sadness lives, when shall we part
In shadows I hide
My deepest of loves
In darkness I lay
Breathing you in from above
This silence I fear
Fading faster since love
Black ink in this mocking bird's heart
Show me forever and keep us apart
One Raindrop
Quiet- nice and refreshing,
We are so insignificant to this place.
One raindrop in an ocean of life,
How much difference does it really make?
We are so insignificant to this place.
One raindrop in an ocean of life,
How much difference does it really make?
Ocean
Trapped in the comfortable conformities
Too scared to move up or down
Not knowing which way to go
This ocean I sit upon
Maybe others have seen it
-it's still new to me.
Too scared to move up or down
Not knowing which way to go
This ocean I sit upon
Maybe others have seen it
-it's still new to me.
The Sky Is Falling
I look to the heavens,
And what do I see.
A great and mighty battle,
Happening before me.
I look to the earth,
And what do I find.
Ignorance and sin,
Scattered among the minds.
I'm so worried,
I'm so scared.
All of the terror,
And nobody cares.
The sky is falling,
And nobody gives a damn.
The sky is falling,
And I'm gonna stop it if I can.
And what do I see.
A great and mighty battle,
Happening before me.
I look to the earth,
And what do I find.
Ignorance and sin,
Scattered among the minds.
I'm so worried,
I'm so scared.
All of the terror,
And nobody cares.
The sky is falling,
And nobody gives a damn.
The sky is falling,
And I'm gonna stop it if I can.
Flavor
God is there,
God is here.
The world drinks him in,
But spits him out,
If not the right flavor.
Satan adjust his flavor,
To please the mouth,
but poisons the body.
Pleasure is overrated.
What feels good to the body,
Hurts the soul.
God is here.
The world drinks him in,
But spits him out,
If not the right flavor.
Satan adjust his flavor,
To please the mouth,
but poisons the body.
Pleasure is overrated.
What feels good to the body,
Hurts the soul.
Sucker
I had a woman,
Who did everything.
She was cute,
A sweet little thing.
I had an eye,
Lazy for the chest.
I know she'd love me,
Far better than the rest.
Why is it so hard,
Keeping it in.
Why does this world,
Make it out to be a sin.
I'm always hungry,
Never can be full.
I'm always hungry,
I'm always hungry,
Got to remember the golden rule.
I got dirt in my eye,
Cat got my tongue.
I see her walking,
Maybe she's the one.
Who did everything.
She was cute,
A sweet little thing.
I had an eye,
Lazy for the chest.
I know she'd love me,
Far better than the rest.
Why is it so hard,
Keeping it in.
Why does this world,
Make it out to be a sin.
I'm always hungry,
Never can be full.
I'm always hungry,
I'm always hungry,
Got to remember the golden rule.
I got dirt in my eye,
Cat got my tongue.
I see her walking,
Maybe she's the one.
Struggles
Do my thoughts count?
Will the world listen to them-
Through music?
Damn the struggles I have.
So simple, but so complex.
Will the world listen to them-
Through music?
Damn the struggles I have.
So simple, but so complex.
Ashtray
Lives are burnt away,
Like cigarettes in my ashtray.
Wasted and meaningless,
Nothing in the same.
Like cigarettes in my ashtray.
Wasted and meaningless,
Nothing in the same.
My Empty Cup
I'm feeling drowned
Like it ain't no thing
Something I've had before
And it ain't nothin' new
I look at my cup
And it sure seemed full
I look again
And it seems I'm getting old.
My world's passing by
I need some direction
I need a finger to point me
And someway to make corrections
Like it ain't no thing
Something I've had before
And it ain't nothin' new
I look at my cup
And it sure seemed full
I look again
And it seems I'm getting old.
My world's passing by
I need some direction
I need a finger to point me
And someway to make corrections
Rush
You left me standing here all alone,
Knowing I needed you and you were gone.
You left me needing this rush to live,
I need your drug so you can give.
Knowing I needed you and you were gone.
You left me needing this rush to live,
I need your drug so you can give.
Turn My Head
Turn my head
Keep me looking
That's what you want
That's what I need
A snicker or two, a nudge and a smile
Hey baby haven't seen you in awhile
Looking so good in those tight a** jeans
My eyes can love you even if your mean
You walk about with a cute little dance
Knowing who you want in your pants
Keep on walking and I'll keep looking
Or stop for a minute and I'll get it cooking
Keep me looking
That's what you want
That's what I need
A snicker or two, a nudge and a smile
Hey baby haven't seen you in awhile
Looking so good in those tight a** jeans
My eyes can love you even if your mean
You walk about with a cute little dance
Knowing who you want in your pants
Keep on walking and I'll keep looking
Or stop for a minute and I'll get it cooking
Burning Love
Darkness will fall once again this night
The tree will wither another leaf
Another soul will be lost forever
Ripping my skip as I charge within
The depths of your soul
This blood is in my eyes
As I scream silently in your ear
Wake up- it's only a dream
Shut up- it's harder than it seems
Consume me like you once knew
Breathe in my remorse and choke
Upon the smoke of burning love
The tree will wither another leaf
Another soul will be lost forever
Ripping my skip as I charge within
The depths of your soul
This blood is in my eyes
As I scream silently in your ear
Wake up- it's only a dream
Shut up- it's harder than it seems
Consume me like you once knew
Breathe in my remorse and choke
Upon the smoke of burning love
Cringe
It kills me to see you and him,
So maybe I'll kill you too.
Death would be too nice,
Why can't you just hate me.
Get it over with,
Please, get it over with.
Make your decision,
Me or him, him or me.
I see you and can only cringe.
Tearing me up, breakin' me up,
Twisting my insides out.
I cannot lose this feeling of doubt.
I just scream and shout.
Leave me alone, leave me alone,
Let it be me who faces reality.
I cringe! when I see you
Cringe! when I hear you
Cringe! when I taste and feel you near me
Get away! Get away!
I want you to myself!
So maybe I'll kill you too.
Death would be too nice,
Why can't you just hate me.
Get it over with,
Please, get it over with.
Make your decision,
Me or him, him or me.
I see you and can only cringe.
Tearing me up, breakin' me up,
Twisting my insides out.
I cannot lose this feeling of doubt.
I just scream and shout.
Leave me alone, leave me alone,
Let it be me who faces reality.
I cringe! when I see you
Cringe! when I hear you
Cringe! when I taste and feel you near me
Get away! Get away!
I want you to myself!
Black Ink
Black Ink in a mockingbird's heart,
So we're together and never apart.
Called this is, where it begins.
Frighten so slowly,
Farther away she comes.
So we're together and never apart.
Called this is, where it begins.
Frighten so slowly,
Farther away she comes.
On My Way
Sailing in the sky,
Wondering if I,
Can find a place to stay.
Or should I be, on my way.
A year or two ago,
I had a choice under me.
Land while the air is clear,
Or crash when I couldn't see.
Skimming the treetops of my mind,
Grazing each branch as I pass,
Feeling the rush of air,
One more hit and I won't care.
Wondering if I,
Can find a place to stay.
Or should I be, on my way.
A year or two ago,
I had a choice under me.
Land while the air is clear,
Or crash when I couldn't see.
Skimming the treetops of my mind,
Grazing each branch as I pass,
Feeling the rush of air,
One more hit and I won't care.
Manic Ways
Adrift I dance again
Between the lies within
My lovers have no end
I wish to die again
Sewing the Fabrics
Kissing the graves
Crying for another bloody way
Wishing she was mine
Loathing you for wine
I found you sleeping
And then you were mine
For the taken
Godforsaken
Misbehavings again
Haze in my head
Wish I had said
In the land of a thousand eyes
We are all dead
We've come for your soul
I am here for your soul
So you'll never be alone
Whisper my name
When your in his arms
Dance with me alone
Between the lies within
My lovers have no end
I wish to die again
Sewing the Fabrics
Kissing the graves
Crying for another bloody way
Wishing she was mine
Loathing you for wine
I found you sleeping
And then you were mine
For the taken
Godforsaken
Misbehavings again
Haze in my head
Wish I had said
In the land of a thousand eyes
We are all dead
We've come for your soul
I am here for your soul
So you'll never be alone
Whisper my name
When your in his arms
Dance with me alone
Outta Place
Lookin' out
This pale window
Of pain, trapped inside
This ocean of conformity
Ripping my hair by the
Roots, the world is gonna die
So we should die in our own
Way and be happy about it. I'm
Not with this world, I want to be alone
F*** this man, who are you to tell me what
To do. you ain't my momma, get back
Before I strike you, just get outta my way,
Outta my face, and outta place, is why I'm all alone.
I'm tired of life and it's prison effect on me, spreadin'
My soul, every which way till I'm goin' nuts. But I
Can be not so unhappy some of the time but still be
Pissed off at you, just 'cause you're ugly and to damn hot.
Piss off.
This world is driving me down to the place I fear to go, stay home.
Pissed on.
This pale window
Of pain, trapped inside
This ocean of conformity
Ripping my hair by the
Roots, the world is gonna die
So we should die in our own
Way and be happy about it. I'm
Not with this world, I want to be alone
F*** this man, who are you to tell me what
To do. you ain't my momma, get back
Before I strike you, just get outta my way,
Outta my face, and outta place, is why I'm all alone.
I'm tired of life and it's prison effect on me, spreadin'
My soul, every which way till I'm goin' nuts. But I
Can be not so unhappy some of the time but still be
Pissed off at you, just 'cause you're ugly and to damn hot.
Piss off.
This world is driving me down to the place I fear to go, stay home.
Pissed on.
Days of Past
I know that I'm leaving you,
But it doesn't mean I'm gone.
We'll always have our days of past,
And our memories will last for so long.
It's alright,
And it's ok.
To know that we'll miss each other,
We'll find a way.
But it doesn't mean I'm gone.
We'll always have our days of past,
And our memories will last for so long.
It's alright,
And it's ok.
To know that we'll miss each other,
We'll find a way.
Journey
Can you hear my thoughts?
From the depths of my soul.
Can you feel my words?
From the shadows of my mouth.
You sweep away my breath,
And my blankets of fear.
Let go of your concerns,
And be afloat in my dream.
Take this journey with me,
It's as good as it seems.
From the depths of my soul.
Can you feel my words?
From the shadows of my mouth.
You sweep away my breath,
And my blankets of fear.
Let go of your concerns,
And be afloat in my dream.
Take this journey with me,
It's as good as it seems.
Showing Me The Light
I've been here for four long years,
Sharing my dreams and fears.
But I'm leaving all of you now,
The struggles aren't over somehow.
Oh I can't find the words,
Of all the good times we've had.
All of this is almost over,
I want you to know that I'm-
On my own,
Reaching further everyday.
All my dreams,
Are just one step away.
I can see clearly now,
My dangers are in sight,
Thank you for loving me,
Showing me the light.
Sharing my dreams and fears.
But I'm leaving all of you now,
The struggles aren't over somehow.
Oh I can't find the words,
Of all the good times we've had.
All of this is almost over,
I want you to know that I'm-
On my own,
Reaching further everyday.
All my dreams,
Are just one step away.
I can see clearly now,
My dangers are in sight,
Thank you for loving me,
Showing me the light.
Imperfections
Corruption of my youth,
Swallowed down-
Touches the very fire I walk on.
Amidst the dreaming stars,
I fall obliterated,
Circum by your infinite beauty.
Laid to rest in my graves of doubt,
I feel no more- turn about.
Falling free of all thought-
The center of me is you.
I breathe no more-
To think again-
To wound no more.
Sadly, in her eyes I see myself-
Untouched unvarnished,
Caressess of perfection,
Rolled in silk-
And gently breezed,
Like a summer day.
She dreams,
In the gentle blue of the night-
I found her.
As this blanket of love,
Warms her delicate body.
Swallowed down-
Touches the very fire I walk on.
Amidst the dreaming stars,
I fall obliterated,
Circum by your infinite beauty.
Laid to rest in my graves of doubt,
I feel no more- turn about.
Falling free of all thought-
The center of me is you.
I breathe no more-
To think again-
To wound no more.
Sadly, in her eyes I see myself-
Untouched unvarnished,
Caressess of perfection,
Rolled in silk-
And gently breezed,
Like a summer day.
She dreams,
In the gentle blue of the night-
I found her.
As this blanket of love,
Warms her delicate body.
A Better Man
Who are we really?
Who completes the circle?
From the darkness emerged,
A better man-
With a vision,
And a dream.
Who completes the circle?
From the darkness emerged,
A better man-
With a vision,
And a dream.
Shores Of Doubt
Midnight among these mountains,
Blackened moon,
Stars gone away,
Hiding from the creatured night.
There arose a silence,
In the midst of the chaos.
The world has brought,
A mere shadow of-
What we've become.
Dark and pale,
With no feelings.
No emotions,
Just the instinct.
A soft voice,
Rings to my ears.
Crying for freedom,
Of the lonely world it dwells in,
Again and again.
Blackened moon,
Stars gone away,
Hiding from the creatured night.
There arose a silence,
In the midst of the chaos.
The world has brought,
A mere shadow of-
What we've become.
Dark and pale,
With no feelings.
No emotions,
Just the instinct.
A soft voice,
Rings to my ears.
Crying for freedom,
Of the lonely world it dwells in,
Again and again.
Drowning In Whiskey Bay
Black nights a creepin'
Leaving shadows on the wall
Black nights a creepin'
Leaving shadows on the wall
I hear you don't love me-
And now I'm comin' for ya'll
I hear the door a knockin'
Come on baby let me in
I hear the door a knockin'
Come on baby let me in
Now you feel me close baby
Now let the dancin' begin
All night long
She cried...
All night long
she sighed....
All night long
She died.
Leaving shadows on the wall
Black nights a creepin'
Leaving shadows on the wall
I hear you don't love me-
And now I'm comin' for ya'll
I hear the door a knockin'
Come on baby let me in
I hear the door a knockin'
Come on baby let me in
Now you feel me close baby
Now let the dancin' begin
All night long
She cried...
All night long
she sighed....
All night long
She died.
One Ivy
Rough lives some have,
Yours was tough too.
But you kept your head up,
Even when things fell through.
You had everyone against you,
Doubts in your corner.
Reasons to quit,
I'm sorry you couldn't join her.
I will never lose,
My faith in you.
I still believe in,
My faith in you.
I stole one thing,
And can never get it back.
I took our friendship,
And threw it off track.
Your faith in me,
Has dwindled to nothing.
I will spend my days,
Searching for that something.
When the tree has withered away,
Only that one ivy can save my way.
Yours was tough too.
But you kept your head up,
Even when things fell through.
You had everyone against you,
Doubts in your corner.
Reasons to quit,
I'm sorry you couldn't join her.
I will never lose,
My faith in you.
I still believe in,
My faith in you.
I stole one thing,
And can never get it back.
I took our friendship,
And threw it off track.
Your faith in me,
Has dwindled to nothing.
I will spend my days,
Searching for that something.
When the tree has withered away,
Only that one ivy can save my way.
Queeny
I gotta friend who likes to dress up,
Shim likes to wear a lot of makeup.
He likes to hang out downtown,
She sometimes likes to go down.
Hey Queeny, where are you doing?
Hey Queeny, what are you going?
I'm twisted just like you,
I like to pluck my eyebrows too.
Well maybe not, but I think it's fun.
And I wish, I could be everyone.
Ya know your so pretty,
Ya know your so damn cute.
The way those women flock to you,
Kinda makes me wanna puke.
If you're gonna, I don't wanna,
If I asked you, would you wanna,
Keep it going, going on home,
Would you come over, over the phone,
In your house, bite the bone,
In your car, if your lazy,
Would you do it, driving miss daisy?
Shim likes to wear a lot of makeup.
He likes to hang out downtown,
She sometimes likes to go down.
Hey Queeny, where are you doing?
Hey Queeny, what are you going?
I'm twisted just like you,
I like to pluck my eyebrows too.
Well maybe not, but I think it's fun.
And I wish, I could be everyone.
Ya know your so pretty,
Ya know your so damn cute.
The way those women flock to you,
Kinda makes me wanna puke.
If you're gonna, I don't wanna,
If I asked you, would you wanna,
Keep it going, going on home,
Would you come over, over the phone,
In your house, bite the bone,
In your car, if your lazy,
Would you do it, driving miss daisy?
Plead With Me
Oceans blue
Sounds of hate
Slip through me
Ten thousand eyes
Awaited here
I watch again
Misty are you
The bitter end
Color me Gently
O so true
Forever and again
To be with you
Plead with me gently
As I draw so near
Be with me completely
And grow with fear
Whispered to you soflty
As I held you so tight
Stay with me forever
As I kiss you goodnight
Sounds of hate
Slip through me
Ten thousand eyes
Awaited here
I watch again
Misty are you
The bitter end
Color me Gently
O so true
Forever and again
To be with you
Plead with me gently
As I draw so near
Be with me completely
And grow with fear
Whispered to you soflty
As I held you so tight
Stay with me forever
As I kiss you goodnight
Thief
So you say you want to save me,
Why don't you save yourself.
You preach your here to love me,
So put my love in your wallet.
Such f******* hypocrites,
Telling me I'm wrong.
Just sit back and listen,
While I say to you,
In no voice of my own.
Follow me, you think I'm the only way.
Pay me, I promise I'll save your soul.
Love me, I'll never turn away from you.
Follow me, I swear I'll be back soon.
So you've heard my words,
So write them down in blood.
Blood so green and flowing,
I can't fathom another way.
You wish you were loved,
You want to have faith.
The pain is in the blood,
You can't survive without it.
Take my money,
At least I still have my soul.
Why don't you save yourself.
You preach your here to love me,
So put my love in your wallet.
Such f******* hypocrites,
Telling me I'm wrong.
Just sit back and listen,
While I say to you,
In no voice of my own.
Follow me, you think I'm the only way.
Pay me, I promise I'll save your soul.
Love me, I'll never turn away from you.
Follow me, I swear I'll be back soon.
So you've heard my words,
So write them down in blood.
Blood so green and flowing,
I can't fathom another way.
You wish you were loved,
You want to have faith.
The pain is in the blood,
You can't survive without it.
Take my money,
At least I still have my soul.
Chains
Twisted in this metal,
Chains that hold me down.
Sores from my past hurt,
Keep me in this basement.
Like a child afraid of the night,
I'm afraid of the pain.
I can't take anymore heartbreaks,
I can't play these senseless games.
There's no such thing as perfect love,
But only my perfect dreams.
Of what I've always wanted,
Or so I convince myself, so it seems.
Chains that hold me down.
Sores from my past hurt,
Keep me in this basement.
Like a child afraid of the night,
I'm afraid of the pain.
I can't take anymore heartbreaks,
I can't play these senseless games.
There's no such thing as perfect love,
But only my perfect dreams.
Of what I've always wanted,
Or so I convince myself, so it seems.
Somewhere In A Song
Dying need, my heart bleeds for the touch of you.
Your flowers have died in my garden today.
Just the thought, the reasons of love so blue.
We left so cold, the pedals have withered away.
Of this I have no answers, so you see me,
Broken into pieces of the puzzle, in love-
Tearing away at the thought of us not being,
Searching for some answers, looking up above.
My skies are crying for you to see them.
My only world broken, to set me free.
My heart will sing the words "What might have been"
And this day it will be the thought "why me?"
A love so perfect nothing could go wrong.
Maybe our love belongs, somewhere in a song.
Your flowers have died in my garden today.
Just the thought, the reasons of love so blue.
We left so cold, the pedals have withered away.
Of this I have no answers, so you see me,
Broken into pieces of the puzzle, in love-
Tearing away at the thought of us not being,
Searching for some answers, looking up above.
My skies are crying for you to see them.
My only world broken, to set me free.
My heart will sing the words "What might have been"
And this day it will be the thought "why me?"
A love so perfect nothing could go wrong.
Maybe our love belongs, somewhere in a song.
Lullaby
A single flower,
Withers away.
So much is broken here,
We live another day.
Dark clouds are coming now,
Coming o so soon.
Whispers through my heart,
And dances on the blue.
Fly away,
My soft little butterfly.
Cry for me,
As I float beneath these dreams.
Withers away.
So much is broken here,
We live another day.
Dark clouds are coming now,
Coming o so soon.
Whispers through my heart,
And dances on the blue.
Fly away,
My soft little butterfly.
Cry for me,
As I float beneath these dreams.
Into Chaos
Breathless now,
This cold wind upon my face.
It's been so long,
Since I've kissed the morning sun.
Distant now,
I lie here and wait.
Blue oceans of life,
Seep into my skin.
Drops upon my brow,
The taste of you.
Fade away into this night,
As we dream ourselves into chaos.
Killing the light of our moon,
Along the way.
Now I can sleep,
In the arms of sanity.
And wake the shadows,
Beneath my eyes.
This cold wind upon my face.
It's been so long,
Since I've kissed the morning sun.
Distant now,
I lie here and wait.
Blue oceans of life,
Seep into my skin.
Drops upon my brow,
The taste of you.
Fade away into this night,
As we dream ourselves into chaos.
Killing the light of our moon,
Along the way.
Now I can sleep,
In the arms of sanity.
And wake the shadows,
Beneath my eyes.
Lonely Stranger
Away my lonely stranger
I have no money to give
Myself and no other
We wait for you to live
Walk with me
Talk with me
Your mind, your thoughts
Float in my weary head
For soon I will be dead
Soon will we depart
Matters of my heart
Taken from my beating chest
Forever alone I will rest
I have no money to give
Myself and no other
We wait for you to live
Walk with me
Talk with me
Your mind, your thoughts
Float in my weary head
For soon I will be dead
Soon will we depart
Matters of my heart
Taken from my beating chest
Forever alone I will rest
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
My Lullaby
A single flower,
Withers away.
So much is broke here,
I live another day.
The blackness is coming now,
Coming o so soon.
Rolling through my heart,
And dancing on the moon.
Fly away,
My sweet little butterfly.
And cry for me,
While I play you my lullaby.
Withers away.
So much is broke here,
I live another day.
The blackness is coming now,
Coming o so soon.
Rolling through my heart,
And dancing on the moon.
Fly away,
My sweet little butterfly.
And cry for me,
While I play you my lullaby.
Fighting Nightmares
Cannot help these feelings kept inside of me
Fighting through the turmoil, waking up the dead
I don't know why this s*** has come to be
Fighting nightmares, screaming, wake up, wet my bed
Borderline insanity, you wake up in front of me
Screaming in my face, with your thorns in my side
Borderline insanity, you fall asleep next to me
You only think your safe, until you close your eyes
Cover my head with a blanket of fear
Cold and desperate to deliver the morning light
Moaning from within my nightmares, tears
I only keep them safe from this desperate night
You can't take me
You can't wake me
Go back inside
Get what you came for
Fighting through the turmoil, waking up the dead
I don't know why this s*** has come to be
Fighting nightmares, screaming, wake up, wet my bed
Borderline insanity, you wake up in front of me
Screaming in my face, with your thorns in my side
Borderline insanity, you fall asleep next to me
You only think your safe, until you close your eyes
Cover my head with a blanket of fear
Cold and desperate to deliver the morning light
Moaning from within my nightmares, tears
I only keep them safe from this desperate night
You can't take me
You can't wake me
Go back inside
Get what you came for
Raped Death
Where am I going, I can't see a thing
Red light, Red blood, The fat lady sings
I get away, I got away
Can you help me? Stay away from me.
I don't want you here, leave me alone
It's almost over now, soon I'll be gone
I've raped myself, of my very last breath.
I hate you, so now I've raped death.
Black blood in my veins
This s*** is driving me insane
Get out of my way, I gotta mission on my mind
Gotta end this life, gotta leave it all behind
All these voices, voices in my mind.
I've tried to tell you a thousand times.
Gotta get it, gotta get it out my brain
All this s*** is driving me insane
Stay away, stay away from me now
Before I kill you, kill me, or die somehow.
Get away, get away from me
I don't need your f******* apathy.
Red light, Red blood, The fat lady sings
I get away, I got away
Can you help me? Stay away from me.
I don't want you here, leave me alone
It's almost over now, soon I'll be gone
I've raped myself, of my very last breath.
I hate you, so now I've raped death.
Black blood in my veins
This s*** is driving me insane
Get out of my way, I gotta mission on my mind
Gotta end this life, gotta leave it all behind
All these voices, voices in my mind.
I've tried to tell you a thousand times.
Gotta get it, gotta get it out my brain
All this s*** is driving me insane
Stay away, stay away from me now
Before I kill you, kill me, or die somehow.
Get away, get away from me
I don't need your f******* apathy.
Throw Me Away
I wanna hear you scream,
I wanna feel your pain.
Deep within the realm of fear,
Griping me, ripping me through this world.
Evil rapes the good souls,
And leaves them to rot in holes.
Filled with the blood of my brother,
I blame it all on the other.
I am your tool to use,
Rust me and give me away.
I am your fool to abuse,
F*** me and throw me away.
I wanna feel your dreams,
I wanna hear your pain.
Tell me your problems now,
So I can rip them from my soul.
I wanna feel your pain.
Deep within the realm of fear,
Griping me, ripping me through this world.
Evil rapes the good souls,
And leaves them to rot in holes.
Filled with the blood of my brother,
I blame it all on the other.
I am your tool to use,
Rust me and give me away.
I am your fool to abuse,
F*** me and throw me away.
I wanna feel your dreams,
I wanna hear your pain.
Tell me your problems now,
So I can rip them from my soul.
The End
I reach for the clouds
And grab my space
That takes me to the place
Where all is good
I live this day
And see the end
For my heart is there
I'm at the end
And grab my space
That takes me to the place
Where all is good
I live this day
And see the end
For my heart is there
I'm at the end
Thoughts of Me
Wasted wating time, slipping away
Cutting my sorrows in someone else's grief
Wasted waitng time, washing away
Emptying myself in another's dream
Pulled away and back again
Echo my laughter to the world
Spit on myself and my words
All in a day's work
All in a day's time
Nothing to do but spit on you
Spit on the one who deserted me first
Cutting my sorrows in someone else's grief
Wasted waitng time, washing away
Emptying myself in another's dream
Pulled away and back again
Echo my laughter to the world
Spit on myself and my words
All in a day's work
All in a day's time
Nothing to do but spit on you
Spit on the one who deserted me first
Take Me Home
Is this myself I see before thee?
Lying motionless and still
So much at peace, so constant
No worries, no sorrows
No heartbreaks, no love
No fears, no nightmares
No life, no life
The water has given me life,
The water has taken it.
The unborn mother,
Will take me home,
Where I belong.
Now I can clean my room.
Lying motionless and still
So much at peace, so constant
No worries, no sorrows
No heartbreaks, no love
No fears, no nightmares
No life, no life
The water has given me life,
The water has taken it.
The unborn mother,
Will take me home,
Where I belong.
Now I can clean my room.
Where Do I Stand?
I wanna break these chains,
That are in my way.
I wanna open my door,
And see the world today.
I wanna look at the sunset,
That's at the bottom of the sky.
I wanna touch every dream,
Before my heart dies.
Where do I stand?
When the room is crowded and loud.
Where do I sit?
When my table is taken.
I go to the door,
To see who's there.
But the phone rings...
No place to sleep tonight.
That are in my way.
I wanna open my door,
And see the world today.
I wanna look at the sunset,
That's at the bottom of the sky.
I wanna touch every dream,
Before my heart dies.
Where do I stand?
When the room is crowded and loud.
Where do I sit?
When my table is taken.
I go to the door,
To see who's there.
But the phone rings...
No place to sleep tonight.
Forever In My Hand
Teasing your gentle soul,
With forever in my hand.
Absorb your vast universe,
With every breath I can.
With forever in my hand.
Absorb your vast universe,
With every breath I can.
White Marble
Upon his neck he wears a cross
Made of shiny white marble
And it has three dents from where he dropped it
And lost the direction in his life
Once when he was a young boy
And his mother abandoned him
She said son I gotta leave now
But your father will take you in
She said, take your cross and hold it tight
Through the rain and stormy weather
It will keep you safe through the night
While your world is closing tight
Once again, when he was a young man
His friend had a story to tell
Drugs kept him down on the low end
Made his life a living hell
Then one day he gave up on us
And said his life was through
And he took the bridge off of devil's road
Oh Lord what am I gonna do
Now he's a loving dad
With a son he loves so much
How he loves his smiling face
And that warm baby's touch
But one day the doctor said
His son was falling from grace
And tears rolled down his fateful cheek
As another death fell upon his face
Made of shiny white marble
And it has three dents from where he dropped it
And lost the direction in his life
Once when he was a young boy
And his mother abandoned him
She said son I gotta leave now
But your father will take you in
She said, take your cross and hold it tight
Through the rain and stormy weather
It will keep you safe through the night
While your world is closing tight
Once again, when he was a young man
His friend had a story to tell
Drugs kept him down on the low end
Made his life a living hell
Then one day he gave up on us
And said his life was through
And he took the bridge off of devil's road
Oh Lord what am I gonna do
Now he's a loving dad
With a son he loves so much
How he loves his smiling face
And that warm baby's touch
But one day the doctor said
His son was falling from grace
And tears rolled down his fateful cheek
As another death fell upon his face
Lovers Delight
Moonlight sonata at lakefront inn
This is where my tale begins
Lovers cross at enchanted graves
Loves lost and lives saved
Passions meet for the first and last
Tales told as the lovers laugh
They meet with a kiss
And take it below
Much farther than they want to go
Tables turn, fortunes meet
No other love each one seeks
Lamps in ther room
Lit in despair
Couples of trouble
Meet so unfair
Washed away their only sin
That is where their life will begin
This is where my tale begins
Lovers cross at enchanted graves
Loves lost and lives saved
Passions meet for the first and last
Tales told as the lovers laugh
They meet with a kiss
And take it below
Much farther than they want to go
Tables turn, fortunes meet
No other love each one seeks
Lamps in ther room
Lit in despair
Couples of trouble
Meet so unfair
Washed away their only sin
That is where their life will begin
Iron Mask
Bend the light and bend my eyes
Locked up with this fake disguise
Iron mask to protect my skin
This is where my tale ends
Lovers leave there sorrows below
As their fortune?
No one knows.
Locked up with this fake disguise
Iron mask to protect my skin
This is where my tale ends
Lovers leave there sorrows below
As their fortune?
No one knows.
Spider's Web
There's a clear in the path ahead
Just enough for us to see
A break in time
The only way for us to be
We've been tangled
In our webs of deceit
Living our lives
So incomplete
Like the blood thirsty mosquito
Trapped in the spider's web
Just enough for us to see
A break in time
The only way for us to be
We've been tangled
In our webs of deceit
Living our lives
So incomplete
Like the blood thirsty mosquito
Trapped in the spider's web
Saving Her
She sits and wonders who she is
And no matter how far she has come
There's no turning back
From all the sin she has done
Now she fears all that's inside her
Now she knows what she will be
Cheating death again and again
Save her life from this misery
She's destroyed her hopes and dreams
Her soul is dead as so it seems
Painful now are her thoughts tonight
Will she ever be satisfied?
And no matter how far she has come
There's no turning back
From all the sin she has done
Now she fears all that's inside her
Now she knows what she will be
Cheating death again and again
Save her life from this misery
She's destroyed her hopes and dreams
Her soul is dead as so it seems
Painful now are her thoughts tonight
Will she ever be satisfied?
Back Again
How did I get to nothing?
Buried in this place
Her shadow is upon my back
But I can't see her face
How did I get to nothing
Once again, once again
I sit on this empty box
In the corner of the room
Bleeding once more in my dream
I awake and dance with her again
She comes to me and I die once more
Every breath as sweet and steals only my soul
Floating with my demons
Healing all of their wounds
Kissing my gentle stranger twice
For my faith lies in death
Nothing is nothing to me
Until I see that nothing is more than I could be
How did I get to nothing?
-I am nothing again
Buried in this place
Her shadow is upon my back
But I can't see her face
How did I get to nothing
Once again, once again
I sit on this empty box
In the corner of the room
Bleeding once more in my dream
I awake and dance with her again
She comes to me and I die once more
Every breath as sweet and steals only my soul
Floating with my demons
Healing all of their wounds
Kissing my gentle stranger twice
For my faith lies in death
Nothing is nothing to me
Until I see that nothing is more than I could be
How did I get to nothing?
-I am nothing again
Spoons
So many
Spoons in my mouth
I choke
On the hands that feed me
I bite the hands
That hold me down
I wanna fly free again
I gotta get a fresh start
Spoons in my mouth
I choke
On the hands that feed me
I bite the hands
That hold me down
I wanna fly free again
I gotta get a fresh start
Endless Night
Down these streets
I heard a cry
A woman shrieks
With death's desire
Out the window
On the floor
All of your faces
I choose to ignore
Floating in my dreams within
Falling from my death again
I taste another day to love with you
Searching through faces
And endless spaces
Walking alone again
Desperate to cry to you
I heard a cry
A woman shrieks
With death's desire
Out the window
On the floor
All of your faces
I choose to ignore
Floating in my dreams within
Falling from my death again
I taste another day to love with you
Searching through faces
And endless spaces
Walking alone again
Desperate to cry to you
Downtown
I like the feeling I get
When she tickles me
I like the sensations
That come over me
I like the taste of her lips
The smile on her face
The guilt in her eyes
Whenever she goes all around
Downtown is where she pleases me
Downtown is how she likes to be
Downtown is pure curiosity
Downtown is where she outta be
My lady likes it when
I tell her I love her so
And she likes it more when I tell her
Downtown is where I want her to go
When she tickles me
I like the sensations
That come over me
I like the taste of her lips
The smile on her face
The guilt in her eyes
Whenever she goes all around
Downtown is where she pleases me
Downtown is how she likes to be
Downtown is pure curiosity
Downtown is where she outta be
My lady likes it when
I tell her I love her so
And she likes it more when I tell her
Downtown is where I want her to go
Shallow Blind
Love has many faces, names, and places
Feelings, emotion, all feel the same
With each new face to fill this place,
A place where there isn't much space;
Just enough to smile a face or two.
Can't help but feeling blue,
Envious of the loneliness,
But in desperate need of attention
Of an affectionate other.
Spinning to point the finger at her
For she's the girl of the moment
Her high hopes and dreams makes it easier to leave...
On to leave another and forget about the left.
Back again but only to leave you
I can never stay forever
Unless you leave me first.
Feelings, emotion, all feel the same
With each new face to fill this place,
A place where there isn't much space;
Just enough to smile a face or two.
Can't help but feeling blue,
Envious of the loneliness,
But in desperate need of attention
Of an affectionate other.
Spinning to point the finger at her
For she's the girl of the moment
Her high hopes and dreams makes it easier to leave...
On to leave another and forget about the left.
Back again but only to leave you
I can never stay forever
Unless you leave me first.
Alone We Are Again
Alone we are again
On the cold early morning
Touched by this hope of existence
Amidst this ivory pillow
To dream is to breathe
Awake and sleep another life
On the cold early morning
Touched by this hope of existence
Amidst this ivory pillow
To dream is to breathe
Awake and sleep another life
Look Up
"I need a hero,
Someone to look up to."
Just look in the mirror
And know I look at you
A child born with half a face
A soulful body in this mindless place
Days of misery brought on by school
When many peers of hers say "f*** the golden rule"
A woman burned head to toe
The fires from within could strike a blow
To the world who only sees her skin
And not her pride or her beauty within
Someone to look up to."
Just look in the mirror
And know I look at you
A child born with half a face
A soulful body in this mindless place
Days of misery brought on by school
When many peers of hers say "f*** the golden rule"
A woman burned head to toe
The fires from within could strike a blow
To the world who only sees her skin
And not her pride or her beauty within
Silent Secrets
I see you walking through my life
In and out, on the occasion I see you
I pause to catch my breath
And dream that you were mine
I see you talking to another
Only to look at me blindly
Not a jealous thought I feel
Deep inside I have you with me
I take you away to be with me
A place where we can act freely
Showing each other our true emotion
A love we will hope to have true devotion
As hopeless as it seems
Together we will be
I will find a way to love
And you to love me
Please help me get your love
I need to have you here
Here with me is where you belong
In and out, on the occasion I see you
I pause to catch my breath
And dream that you were mine
I see you talking to another
Only to look at me blindly
Not a jealous thought I feel
Deep inside I have you with me
I take you away to be with me
A place where we can act freely
Showing each other our true emotion
A love we will hope to have true devotion
As hopeless as it seems
Together we will be
I will find a way to love
And you to love me
Please help me get your love
I need to have you here
Here with me is where you belong
Step On You
Puny slime, eat my grime off my shoe
Get in my way, I'll f****** step on you
Worms meat and devil's treats
You can smell my rotten feet
I'll squash your brain, drive you insane
I laugh at you and love your pain.
I step on your dreams
Step on your face
Step all over you
And now your back in your place
On the ground, in the dirt
The only thing I want is for you to hurt
I step on you,
I s*** on you.
I hope you cry,
I hope you die.
Don't come cry to me
I'll flick you like a puny flea
I don't care what you do
As long as I'm better than you
So stay out of my f****** way
And worship every word I say
Get in my way, I'll f****** step on you
Worms meat and devil's treats
You can smell my rotten feet
I'll squash your brain, drive you insane
I laugh at you and love your pain.
I step on your dreams
Step on your face
Step all over you
And now your back in your place
On the ground, in the dirt
The only thing I want is for you to hurt
I step on you,
I s*** on you.
I hope you cry,
I hope you die.
Don't come cry to me
I'll flick you like a puny flea
I don't care what you do
As long as I'm better than you
So stay out of my f****** way
And worship every word I say
Still Gone
I see that empty desk in the corner of the class
I can almost imagine that your still there, next to me
I've spent drowning nights and sickened days thinking of
How much I miss you filling that chair
Why did you have to leave me here, all alone
With no one left to talk to
No one to share my ideas
No one to share my dreams
Now what the hell am I supposed to do
Why are you still gone?
Why am I still here?
Why is that I always wish that I'm with you?
Why are you still gone?
Why am I still here?
Why can't I just forget about this world?
Sittin down in front of the house
Won't you lone me a cigarette my friend,
And share a laugh or two.
I know you've had a rough life in all,
But I can help you with the pain.
Please don't leave me here, all alone
With no one to talk to
No one to share my ideas
No one to share my dreams
Now where in the hell am I gonna go?
I can almost imagine that your still there, next to me
I've spent drowning nights and sickened days thinking of
How much I miss you filling that chair
Why did you have to leave me here, all alone
With no one left to talk to
No one to share my ideas
No one to share my dreams
Now what the hell am I supposed to do
Why are you still gone?
Why am I still here?
Why is that I always wish that I'm with you?
Why are you still gone?
Why am I still here?
Why can't I just forget about this world?
Sittin down in front of the house
Won't you lone me a cigarette my friend,
And share a laugh or two.
I know you've had a rough life in all,
But I can help you with the pain.
Please don't leave me here, all alone
With no one to talk to
No one to share my ideas
No one to share my dreams
Now where in the hell am I gonna go?
Bandwagon
So you want to be the same
You want to fit in
Give me your money
I'll let you in
I open the door
To expand your mind
To think for yourself
And waste my f****** time
Get a life
Get a reality
Take the knife
And dismiss your equality
We know you need a friend
I got your friend right here
Mr. Left and Mr. Right
Let them whisper in your ear
I wish you to meet them
And make them feel fine
I've been with your type before
Now come over and be with mine
You want to fit in
Give me your money
I'll let you in
I open the door
To expand your mind
To think for yourself
And waste my f****** time
Get a life
Get a reality
Take the knife
And dismiss your equality
We know you need a friend
I got your friend right here
Mr. Left and Mr. Right
Let them whisper in your ear
I wish you to meet them
And make them feel fine
I've been with your type before
Now come over and be with mine
Father Goat's Cult Cry
I heard you softly whisper
Near my little ear
The world is gonna end
And the devil is finally here
Eat this sweet fruit
And drink this bitter wine
And always remember
That you will be mine
Who knew I would suffer
Who knew this was the end
But I'm so sorry now
Of what I have to do
Please forgive me father
As I stand in front of you
There is power in verse
There is power in chant
There is power in word
There is no love in this land
I give you the power
I give you the truth
I give you the answer
To all that is in front of you
Near my little ear
The world is gonna end
And the devil is finally here
Eat this sweet fruit
And drink this bitter wine
And always remember
That you will be mine
Who knew I would suffer
Who knew this was the end
But I'm so sorry now
Of what I have to do
Please forgive me father
As I stand in front of you
There is power in verse
There is power in chant
There is power in word
There is no love in this land
I give you the power
I give you the truth
I give you the answer
To all that is in front of you
Forsaken
I told you I loved you,
But you had no care.
You were only with me because...
I was the first one there.
But you had no care.
You were only with me because...
I was the first one there.
Ransom My Heart
Three little words,
Melted away.
My heart is broken,
I will never love the same.
Who knew love,
Had such a high price to pay.
Melted away.
My heart is broken,
I will never love the same.
Who knew love,
Had such a high price to pay.
Still I Bleed
Another drop of pain
In an ocean of truth
Moments come and go
I puke and think of you
Sickened by your blackest skin
Deep within lies no beauty
Moments past- still I bleed
In an ocean of truth
Moments come and go
I puke and think of you
Sickened by your blackest skin
Deep within lies no beauty
Moments past- still I bleed
Companion
Independent.
What I need,
What I want.
I am,
No one.
I want,
Someone.
Alone,
Comfortable,
Driving,
Preferably.
Road is-
Companion.
Not Alone.
What I need,
What I want.
I am,
No one.
I want,
Someone.
Alone,
Comfortable,
Driving,
Preferably.
Road is-
Companion.
Not Alone.
Bottom Of My Sky
Wish I could see you once again
Wish I could touch you once again
Just hold me close and don't let go
Maybe it's something I'll never know
Just to hold you once again
You and I were walking
And we were talking
About the way it should have been
I gave my life to the world I'm in
I can't escape from the thought that should have been
I'm looking for a way to the path that should be taken
I'm at the bottom of my sky
I look away to the things that are in my face
Wish I could touch you once again
Just hold me close and don't let go
Maybe it's something I'll never know
Just to hold you once again
You and I were walking
And we were talking
About the way it should have been
I gave my life to the world I'm in
I can't escape from the thought that should have been
I'm looking for a way to the path that should be taken
I'm at the bottom of my sky
I look away to the things that are in my face
Inside My Heart
Can you stay here,
For just a little while.
I taste your lips,
Forever on my tongue,
Inside my heart.
For just a little while.
I taste your lips,
Forever on my tongue,
Inside my heart.
Insecticide
Got these bugs on me
Bugs in my mind that feed
Feed on my soul to which I live
Live for tomorrow and eat yours today
I need my insecticide
To kill the itching pain
I need my tongue to lie
To hide you from my rain
Crawling, scrathing, burning
Keep away from me
I need you to want me
And infect my diseased blood
Crawl on me
Eat my inside
So I can fill my veins
And learn to die
Bugs in my mind that feed
Feed on my soul to which I live
Live for tomorrow and eat yours today
I need my insecticide
To kill the itching pain
I need my tongue to lie
To hide you from my rain
Crawling, scrathing, burning
Keep away from me
I need you to want me
And infect my diseased blood
Crawl on me
Eat my inside
So I can fill my veins
And learn to die
Emotional Prisons
So much on my mind
This love is not the telling kind
So much to say
These words won't go away
Trapped again
In the world of silence
Trapped again
In the shadows of doubt
So much I hide
In these deep veins of mine
Graduated to nothing
Tips of your tongue
Almost touch my heart
Shivers of your lips
Rest upon mine
Blankets of fear
Cover my gentle soul
I wish them all away
I want them to go away
Why must we hide it
Why must we fight it
This love is not the telling kind
So much to say
These words won't go away
Trapped again
In the world of silence
Trapped again
In the shadows of doubt
So much I hide
In these deep veins of mine
Graduated to nothing
Tips of your tongue
Almost touch my heart
Shivers of your lips
Rest upon mine
Blankets of fear
Cover my gentle soul
I wish them all away
I want them to go away
Why must we hide it
Why must we fight it
Shadows On The Wall
Shadows on the wall,
Sleeping underneath the night.
Where no other demons crawl,
Far away from morning light.
Sleeping underneath the night.
Where no other demons crawl,
Far away from morning light.
Lady Luck
Creeping to the boundaries
Only looking inward
Pulling at the one chance
My eternal dances with ease
My pun away from you
Pushed over from me
Covers in my mind
Scarred in my soul
Only looking inward
Pulling at the one chance
My eternal dances with ease
My pun away from you
Pushed over from me
Covers in my mind
Scarred in my soul
Capture My Heart
Listening to the sound of your voice,
Sweet and gentle,
Lifting me to a higher place,
Where I can only imagine,
You hear with me.
Soft and beautiful,
Your body-
Like a vision of love coming to life.
Carefree in your world of joy and sorrow,
Laughing and crying,
Making your tears both sweet and bitter.
Sweet and enchanting music,
Brings tears to my eyes,
And captures my heart-
With love and tenderness.
Sweet and gentle,
Lifting me to a higher place,
Where I can only imagine,
You hear with me.
Soft and beautiful,
Your body-
Like a vision of love coming to life.
Carefree in your world of joy and sorrow,
Laughing and crying,
Making your tears both sweet and bitter.
Sweet and enchanting music,
Brings tears to my eyes,
And captures my heart-
With love and tenderness.
My Solitude
A single flower, withers away
Darkness here now- only you to blame
Showers of doubt, drain myself
As I rest upon this dusty shelf.
I fly so high away from you
And spiral around this vast blue
I leave it all behind me
And search...
Darkness here now- only you to blame
Showers of doubt, drain myself
As I rest upon this dusty shelf.
I fly so high away from you
And spiral around this vast blue
I leave it all behind me
And search...
Endless Freedoms
Endless freedoms
To do what we please
No direction
Only our souls to ease
Born to the luxuries
Death by the luxuries
Into the sun
We fly to be seen
Burned by it's touch
Nothingness has been
Living through the lives of others
Riding the horse and carriages
Of their grace and fortune
Only they are the fortunate ones
We sink in ourselves so far
That we forget who we are
And where we want to be
To do what we please
No direction
Only our souls to ease
Born to the luxuries
Death by the luxuries
Into the sun
We fly to be seen
Burned by it's touch
Nothingness has been
Living through the lives of others
Riding the horse and carriages
Of their grace and fortune
Only they are the fortunate ones
We sink in ourselves so far
That we forget who we are
And where we want to be
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
My Heart's Dependence
When I look into your eyes
My soul melts within me.
And a beat of my heart is given to you.
My only want is you.
The taste of your lips,
The softness of your hair.
I want you close to me,
I need to breathe in your love,
So I can live.
My heart will surely crumble without it.
Hold my heart,
Hold it with your caressing hands,
Embrace it with a firm gentleness
And never let it go.
Look into it and see what makes it beat,
You'll find an image of you,
Kissing my heart to start again.
Having stopped before to piece back together,
Fragments of torment and mislead love.
Your beauty is so great,
That if I were blind, I would feel it within me.
Looking straight into my soul,
And finding something that is yours.
My love will always be for you.
My soul melts within me.
And a beat of my heart is given to you.
My only want is you.
The taste of your lips,
The softness of your hair.
I want you close to me,
I need to breathe in your love,
So I can live.
My heart will surely crumble without it.
Hold my heart,
Hold it with your caressing hands,
Embrace it with a firm gentleness
And never let it go.
Look into it and see what makes it beat,
You'll find an image of you,
Kissing my heart to start again.
Having stopped before to piece back together,
Fragments of torment and mislead love.
Your beauty is so great,
That if I were blind, I would feel it within me.
Looking straight into my soul,
And finding something that is yours.
My love will always be for you.
Forever?
Forever-
Just a word?
Or something I feel
Could it be this time- real?
Real to my heart at the time
Real to you- Now your mine.
I love you, Maybe not yet.
I need you, especially to be wet.
Is that all this is-
A good weekend fling, everyday
I don't know anymore, whose to say!?
Am I sabotaging this on purpose
Who cares what color your purse is.
-I do...maybe I need you?
Maybe I need someone,
And your just convenient.
Just a word?
Or something I feel
Could it be this time- real?
Real to my heart at the time
Real to you- Now your mine.
I love you, Maybe not yet.
I need you, especially to be wet.
Is that all this is-
A good weekend fling, everyday
I don't know anymore, whose to say!?
Am I sabotaging this on purpose
Who cares what color your purse is.
-I do...maybe I need you?
Maybe I need someone,
And your just convenient.
Should've Went Right
Left or right?
Decisions to make.
Getting dark....
Too late?
Left or right?
Right or wrong.
Love again...
This strong?
Yes or no.
Never again.
Solitude.
Happy again.
Decisions to make.
Getting dark....
Too late?
Left or right?
Right or wrong.
Love again...
This strong?
Yes or no.
Never again.
Solitude.
Happy again.
Hear My Words In A Look
Hear my words in a look
Read my thoughts from a book
To know is to love
To love is to be
Be my feelings for me
Let my feelings be you
Think not aloud
And to the soul be true
Read my thoughts from a book
To know is to love
To love is to be
Be my feelings for me
Let my feelings be you
Think not aloud
And to the soul be true
Dancing With Fire
Sweet caresses of smoke
Kiss the air in it's sweet sorrow
Lost in its timelessness of nothing
Searching for a partner, Death comes
Rivers of white floating up
Catching my intrusions as I pass by
Loneliness creeps upon my pillow
Blankets of lust intrude my thought
Fly away my earthless angel
Kiss me goodnight, once again
Rest my weary head,
Kiss me goodnight, once I'm dead
Kiss the air in it's sweet sorrow
Lost in its timelessness of nothing
Searching for a partner, Death comes
Rivers of white floating up
Catching my intrusions as I pass by
Loneliness creeps upon my pillow
Blankets of lust intrude my thought
Fly away my earthless angel
Kiss me goodnight, once again
Rest my weary head,
Kiss me goodnight, once I'm dead
Burnt
Incriminate myself to be another
Destroy my dream for another
Destiny is what we believe
Fate is what I decieve
Burn ashes burn
Burn my dreams into a hole
Burn ashes burn
Burn myself with no control
Light another candle
Burn another hole
So much to handle
So little to hold
Destroy my dream for another
Destiny is what we believe
Fate is what I decieve
Burn ashes burn
Burn my dreams into a hole
Burn ashes burn
Burn myself with no control
Light another candle
Burn another hole
So much to handle
So little to hold
Remember Me
The angels see a burning light
A little too dim- only at night
A faint chance- his merry way
So much to hide- so little to say
Struggles so hard, yet easy
Fed up with all that 'greasy'
The lake where we were made
The times I remember - never trade
Bad to the bone as I wanna be
Infamous rebellion- remember me.
A little too dim- only at night
A faint chance- his merry way
So much to hide- so little to say
Struggles so hard, yet easy
Fed up with all that 'greasy'
The lake where we were made
The times I remember - never trade
Bad to the bone as I wanna be
Infamous rebellion- remember me.
Nothing
Nothing-
To be or nobody
In love
In shame
That decietful eye
Looking everywhere
To be not found
Yet, learned and followed
In bed, in love
No time for your company
No time for your
Sympathy or
Your empathy
I don't need it
More wine maestro-
Thank you
I needed
A new life
To be or nobody
In love
In shame
That decietful eye
Looking everywhere
To be not found
Yet, learned and followed
In bed, in love
No time for your company
No time for your
Sympathy or
Your empathy
I don't need it
More wine maestro-
Thank you
I needed
A new life
Shadows Of Me
A mere shadow of another-
Fragments of light peirced together
The best aspects of each other
A drop of your pain
Maybe, should I gain?
An ounce of your love
My feathers, if you were a dove
Cloaking myself to the world
Absorbing the traits of a girl
Breaking through my shells of doubt
Why should anyone figure out
Bottled pain, nest of fear
Kept in my soul, I have no fear
...lies...
...hiding...
...stay away...
Fragments of light peirced together
The best aspects of each other
A drop of your pain
Maybe, should I gain?
An ounce of your love
My feathers, if you were a dove
Cloaking myself to the world
Absorbing the traits of a girl
Breaking through my shells of doubt
Why should anyone figure out
Bottled pain, nest of fear
Kept in my soul, I have no fear
...lies...
...hiding...
...stay away...
Thought Box
Trapped inside my world of doubt
Where do I begin, Where do I start?
Want to be like everyone and no one
And still scream with my mouth shut
Get inside my box
So you can see my rage
Get inside my box
So you can feel my pain
So you know what it's like
....to be me
So much to do, many things to say
Make this world go away
So much to do, so little to say
Shut up and feel my apathy
Where do I begin, Where do I start?
Want to be like everyone and no one
And still scream with my mouth shut
Get inside my box
So you can see my rage
Get inside my box
So you can feel my pain
So you know what it's like
....to be me
So much to do, many things to say
Make this world go away
So much to do, so little to say
Shut up and feel my apathy
Convenience
Your so perfect, your so right
Maybe we could be, together again tonight.
No one else around, no longer will I frown
You'll do it for now, I really don't care how.
Maybe we could be, together again tonight.
No one else around, no longer will I frown
You'll do it for now, I really don't care how.
Never Spoken
Midnight approaches this fateful night
A cigarette lit- burning bright
Capturing the moment, never could
Wishing she left me, never would
Enjoying the solitude, my own thoughts
Love is to be earned, never bought
Thinking of the ones that should've been
Wondering why, this wasn't the end.
Never got what I wanted
Only touched, who I dreamed
On my own, wish I were
To be alone, never hurt her
Live for now, until the end
Then look around, and begin again
Wish I could scream.....
I live only to dream.
A cigarette lit- burning bright
Capturing the moment, never could
Wishing she left me, never would
Enjoying the solitude, my own thoughts
Love is to be earned, never bought
Thinking of the ones that should've been
Wondering why, this wasn't the end.
Never got what I wanted
Only touched, who I dreamed
On my own, wish I were
To be alone, never hurt her
Live for now, until the end
Then look around, and begin again
Wish I could scream.....
I live only to dream.
Images On The Wall
Images on the wall
So dark and so afraid
Why do I hear these things?
Was I picked to live in pain?
Cries in the night
Tormented until dawn
I will be gone before long
A new plane of existence
Where peace is at hand
To love yourself completely
And define where you stand
The option of knowledge
To know what you speak
To remember everything at hand
And love to whom you speak
Know me from the look in my eye
And forget my so called name
For everything is judgemental
And all one political game
So dark and so afraid
Why do I hear these things?
Was I picked to live in pain?
Cries in the night
Tormented until dawn
I will be gone before long
A new plane of existence
Where peace is at hand
To love yourself completely
And define where you stand
The option of knowledge
To know what you speak
To remember everything at hand
And love to whom you speak
Know me from the look in my eye
And forget my so called name
For everything is judgemental
And all one political game
One More Try
As I lowered my head down
When she walked away
I couldn't help but think
Of all I meant to say
And I tried so hard
To bring her back to me
And I cried all my tears
That she wouldn't see
I'm sorry I couldn't say those words again
My angry eyes are a fault of mine
I'm sorry I will never be good enough
All I ever wanted is one more try
You were always to good
For these games I play
I think of too much
But never say
I try so hard
Just to be with you
But your too good
Just to be used
When she walked away
I couldn't help but think
Of all I meant to say
And I tried so hard
To bring her back to me
And I cried all my tears
That she wouldn't see
I'm sorry I couldn't say those words again
My angry eyes are a fault of mine
I'm sorry I will never be good enough
All I ever wanted is one more try
You were always to good
For these games I play
I think of too much
But never say
I try so hard
Just to be with you
But your too good
Just to be used
Look Away
I saw an elderly woman walk these streets a day ago
With her tattered clothes and rotted shoes
She came to me and said can I have a dime
I told her no by turning my ears to my friend
And now she haunts my soul
Waiting for another day
I will see her again
And never, never look away
With her tattered clothes and rotted shoes
She came to me and said can I have a dime
I told her no by turning my ears to my friend
And now she haunts my soul
Waiting for another day
I will see her again
And never, never look away
Selfish Is Me
Everything seems so real with delight
And everything seems to burn so bright
Bright as the star that fell from the sky
And landed gently searching your eye
For the deceptive look that creeps in my soul
Searching deeper and deeper as I got to my god
Of finding the quickest way to your
Best thing I love to see in your face
I can only disguise my disgrace in vain
I love the not by myself I do claim
Selfish is me
Selfish is me
Selfish is me my god and my brother
Selfish is me like me and no other
And everything seems to burn so bright
Bright as the star that fell from the sky
And landed gently searching your eye
For the deceptive look that creeps in my soul
Searching deeper and deeper as I got to my god
Of finding the quickest way to your
Best thing I love to see in your face
I can only disguise my disgrace in vain
I love the not by myself I do claim
Selfish is me
Selfish is me
Selfish is me my god and my brother
Selfish is me like me and no other
Virus
Government is the mouse on the keyboard of America
We are nothing but a program they run- f*** that,
I am the virus that destroys the program
Eats the very center of your control
Tearing away at the pieces in your brain
Corrupting the contortions that your program oversees
I am the virus in your mind
Tearing away the faces of mankind
Nothing here to stop me
None of you will love me
We are nothing but a program they run- f*** that,
I am the virus that destroys the program
Eats the very center of your control
Tearing away at the pieces in your brain
Corrupting the contortions that your program oversees
I am the virus in your mind
Tearing away the faces of mankind
Nothing here to stop me
None of you will love me
Silent Chances
Give me a chance to show you how I feel
Give me a reason why I feel this way
I know you may be thinking
Why should I give away my love
Don't be afraid, of what I have
I need to show you, what I can give
Don't be afraid, of what you feel
Feelings are stronger than what we ever know
Days go by, I still have thoughts of you
I live my life wondering about us
These silent days are tearing me apart
Just one chance is all I'll ever need
I look at the sky and see your face
And Lord knows I'm in Heaven
I look at my heart and see your space
Waiting to be filled with your touch
Give me a reason why I feel this way
I know you may be thinking
Why should I give away my love
Don't be afraid, of what I have
I need to show you, what I can give
Don't be afraid, of what you feel
Feelings are stronger than what we ever know
Days go by, I still have thoughts of you
I live my life wondering about us
These silent days are tearing me apart
Just one chance is all I'll ever need
I look at the sky and see your face
And Lord knows I'm in Heaven
I look at my heart and see your space
Waiting to be filled with your touch
Fight Again
Twisting off this face of lust
Running down this path we trust
Imprison what we call our own
Sacred now so I'm told
Reflections of what I'm shown
Danger now if you approach
Hungry for another roach
Where we must resolve
Anger shared- fight again
Running down this path we trust
Imprison what we call our own
Sacred now so I'm told
Reflections of what I'm shown
Danger now if you approach
Hungry for another roach
Where we must resolve
Anger shared- fight again
Into Wonderland
I'm hot - I'm cold
No death upon my soul
Bite it down
And smell me frown
I'm sick of this
I wanted more
I suffered with
A settled score
Shadow me
Unto the grave
Follow me
But misbehave
Let's show you
How I feel
Deep inside this tainted soul
I'd wish I'd find my way-
Out of this hole!
No death upon my soul
Bite it down
And smell me frown
I'm sick of this
I wanted more
I suffered with
A settled score
Shadow me
Unto the grave
Follow me
But misbehave
Let's show you
How I feel
Deep inside this tainted soul
I'd wish I'd find my way-
Out of this hole!
Ghost With No Name
Faintly recalling,
Words we exchanged
Times we shared,
Friends we became,
Shadows of our friendship,
Still haunting me.....
Like a ghost with no name.
Words we exchanged
Times we shared,
Friends we became,
Shadows of our friendship,
Still haunting me.....
Like a ghost with no name.
Shadows In The Dark
Shadows in the dark
Running to the light
Struggling to find it's way
Searching through the night
Running to the light
Struggling to find it's way
Searching through the night
Perfect Circles
Perfect circles- broken in pieces
Life throughout the middle, and kept together
Intruded by parasites below
Slowly wearing away it's beauty and strength
Self-destructing for being what it is
Life throughout the middle, and kept together
Intruded by parasites below
Slowly wearing away it's beauty and strength
Self-destructing for being what it is
Alone In My World
I can't find what I'm looking for
In a world I live in a word I die
Can't have that piece of mind
My plate is full
No longer am I standing here
To see what's become
Off to the star I crave
And into my lonely grave
Alone in my world
My day has turned to night
Nothing to touch my heart
Tears have blinded my sight
A single flower
Withering away
In a world I live in a word I die
Can't have that piece of mind
My plate is full
No longer am I standing here
To see what's become
Off to the star I crave
And into my lonely grave
Alone in my world
My day has turned to night
Nothing to touch my heart
Tears have blinded my sight
A single flower
Withering away
Nothing Is Really Mine
Nothing is really mine-
Once belonged to somebody else
Who am I?
If the music dies,
Will I die?
I want to get to that place
Where dreams are awake
And I am asleep
My soul is crying
For the world to see it
I change everyday
I want you to see it
I want to sing to the highest mountain
And the mountain to pierce my heart
I want to reach to the skies
And the skies to carry me to Heaven
I am not satisfied yet....
Once belonged to somebody else
Who am I?
If the music dies,
Will I die?
I want to get to that place
Where dreams are awake
And I am asleep
My soul is crying
For the world to see it
I change everyday
I want you to see it
I want to sing to the highest mountain
And the mountain to pierce my heart
I want to reach to the skies
And the skies to carry me to Heaven
I am not satisfied yet....
Torn Again
Slipped down through the valley of deception
Curiosity causes this furious connection
Of what I envisioned upon my brow
Naked and tormented by infectious blood
Torn again
Born inside the darkness
Torn again
Pulled from the morning star
Sunrise on my parted soul
Essence of nothing in everyone
Internal combustion evident upon me
Surround me once again
Bury me once again
Curiosity causes this furious connection
Of what I envisioned upon my brow
Naked and tormented by infectious blood
Torn again
Born inside the darkness
Torn again
Pulled from the morning star
Sunrise on my parted soul
Essence of nothing in everyone
Internal combustion evident upon me
Surround me once again
Bury me once again
Borderline Insanity
Borderline Insanity,
Demons in my head again
Screams within,
My death inside-
No longer can I abide
Borderline Insanity,
Demons in my head again
Screams within,
My death inside-
Fear no longer can I hide
I can't see anything in here
It's just a blur of heaven in space
Worldly misfortunes of my mistrust
Too bad for your occasional lust
Why must you say the insignificant things you do
Demons in my head again
Screams within,
My death inside-
No longer can I abide
Borderline Insanity,
Demons in my head again
Screams within,
My death inside-
Fear no longer can I hide
I can't see anything in here
It's just a blur of heaven in space
Worldly misfortunes of my mistrust
Too bad for your occasional lust
Why must you say the insignificant things you do
Tunnel Vision
Like a flower in a storm
I've been beaten and abused
Kept in the cold
And drowned in my sorrows
Alert and awake
Keen as a knife
Sharp as the blade
That killed his own life
I've been beaten and abused
Kept in the cold
And drowned in my sorrows
Alert and awake
Keen as a knife
Sharp as the blade
That killed his own life
Complex
Never will I see
See what's happen to me
Never will I ever
See who's done this to me
Living up to the standards
Standing up to my life
Have I been wrong
Should I have been right
What are you staring at
Someone with a problem like you
What are you laughing at
Someone with a different point of view
I hate that stupid grin
The one implanted upon your face
Smiling as if you knew better
See what's happen to me
Never will I ever
See who's done this to me
Living up to the standards
Standing up to my life
Have I been wrong
Should I have been right
What are you staring at
Someone with a problem like you
What are you laughing at
Someone with a different point of view
I hate that stupid grin
The one implanted upon your face
Smiling as if you knew better
My Left Pocket
So you think I'm crazy
And I think I'm fine
I think all of us maybe
Needs a little piece of mind
In my left pocket I have my world
Where the pain goes away and the light unfurls
So you think it's wrong and I know it's right
Maybe you and me can go sailing tonight
And I think I'm fine
I think all of us maybe
Needs a little piece of mind
In my left pocket I have my world
Where the pain goes away and the light unfurls
So you think it's wrong and I know it's right
Maybe you and me can go sailing tonight
Eve's Cry
Lost within,
My sin again,
Keep me all hollow and thin.
Passed it on,
You win again,
Here we go dancing again.
Away we go,
Paradise is closed,
We all wish the sadness away.
Flames will rise,
And burn my eyes,
I can only say goodbye.
Lost within,
My sins again,
Here we go dancing again.
Keep me numb,
Hollow and thin,
Leave us to follow again.
Falling down,
This lonesome road,
I don't know where to begin.
Passing away,
You win again,
Here we go dancing again.
My sin again,
Keep me all hollow and thin.
Passed it on,
You win again,
Here we go dancing again.
Away we go,
Paradise is closed,
We all wish the sadness away.
Flames will rise,
And burn my eyes,
I can only say goodbye.
Lost within,
My sins again,
Here we go dancing again.
Keep me numb,
Hollow and thin,
Leave us to follow again.
Falling down,
This lonesome road,
I don't know where to begin.
Passing away,
You win again,
Here we go dancing again.
Lover's Dream
Watching you sleep
As each minute passes by,
I think of us together,
And tears rush to my eyes.
I've never been this happy,
I've never been so true.
There's not a minute that goes by,
That I don't think of you.
Your soft red hair,
And emerald green eyes.
The beauty in your heart,
Is too great to hide.
Every time I'm near you,
I want you close to me.
I want to feel your touch,
I want you holding me.
Kiss me with your lips,
So soft and sweet.
Then kiss me with your heart,
Until I can feel it beat.
Beating in my chest,
Your heart I can feel.
Your pain is now mine,
So intense, so real.
I love you more than anything,
With only one thing left to say,
My love will be forever,
And I am here to stay.
As each minute passes by,
I think of us together,
And tears rush to my eyes.
I've never been this happy,
I've never been so true.
There's not a minute that goes by,
That I don't think of you.
Your soft red hair,
And emerald green eyes.
The beauty in your heart,
Is too great to hide.
Every time I'm near you,
I want you close to me.
I want to feel your touch,
I want you holding me.
Kiss me with your lips,
So soft and sweet.
Then kiss me with your heart,
Until I can feel it beat.
Beating in my chest,
Your heart I can feel.
Your pain is now mine,
So intense, so real.
I love you more than anything,
With only one thing left to say,
My love will be forever,
And I am here to stay.
Silent Kiss
Her waves of love tip my boat and
Sink my heart to the depths of her ocean.
She sees my belligerence and looks
Down to cry for me.
I can't see what I've done,
But she wipes my eyes dry and
Forgives me for my regretful deeds,
She can take the pain,
But I only give it back full force to my heart.
I can't see but I try; I cry.
I will not die if she's with me,
I want to die inside her,
Comfort me and lay close- I love you.
Forgive my innocent sins, take me, kill me.
Sink my heart to the depths of her ocean.
She sees my belligerence and looks
Down to cry for me.
I can't see what I've done,
But she wipes my eyes dry and
Forgives me for my regretful deeds,
She can take the pain,
But I only give it back full force to my heart.
I can't see but I try; I cry.
I will not die if she's with me,
I want to die inside her,
Comfort me and lay close- I love you.
Forgive my innocent sins, take me, kill me.
Solitude
Alone in my world,
My day has turned to night.
Nothing to touch my heart,
Tears have blinded my sight.
A single flower,
Withering away.
No one to talk to,
Nothing to say.
A drop of water,
In an ocean of pain.
Of these things,
I have only myself to blame.
My day has turned to night.
Nothing to touch my heart,
Tears have blinded my sight.
A single flower,
Withering away.
No one to talk to,
Nothing to say.
A drop of water,
In an ocean of pain.
Of these things,
I have only myself to blame.
Forever
Just you and me forever,
Is how I want to be.
And always wanting to know,
If this is really happening to me.
Love that is so perfect,
So much like a dream.
I am completely in love,
As though it may seem.
I knew this was right,
Even from the very start.
Knowing we would be together,
Giving each other our hearts.
Forever is what I want,
Forever is what I need.
Loving you with all my soul,
From now until eternity.
Is how I want to be.
And always wanting to know,
If this is really happening to me.
Love that is so perfect,
So much like a dream.
I am completely in love,
As though it may seem.
I knew this was right,
Even from the very start.
Knowing we would be together,
Giving each other our hearts.
Forever is what I want,
Forever is what I need.
Loving you with all my soul,
From now until eternity.
Take Me Back
A fool I was to think,
I didn't need to show you how I cared.
And now you've walked away from me-
Something that is too hard to bare.
It came all as a suprise,
Bringing tears to my eyes.
Why was I so blind?
How did I let our love die?
I never wanted us to be apart,
I always wanted you next to my heart.
What's in it for you I do not know,
But my feelings I do promise to show.
I need you here with me,
You with another- something I never want to see.
I've been away for awhile now,
My heart wasn't with me,
You're the one I've always wanted.
I'm at your mercy, as you can see.
Plese be gentle with my heart,
My love to you I want to give.
Take me back with trust,
And our love will forever live.
I didn't need to show you how I cared.
And now you've walked away from me-
Something that is too hard to bare.
It came all as a suprise,
Bringing tears to my eyes.
Why was I so blind?
How did I let our love die?
I never wanted us to be apart,
I always wanted you next to my heart.
What's in it for you I do not know,
But my feelings I do promise to show.
I need you here with me,
You with another- something I never want to see.
I've been away for awhile now,
My heart wasn't with me,
You're the one I've always wanted.
I'm at your mercy, as you can see.
Plese be gentle with my heart,
My love to you I want to give.
Take me back with trust,
And our love will forever live.
Anticipations
I've had this feeling before,
This fear of the bitter end.
But your voice was silent,
Your heart with no messages to send.
All like a clear bright day,
Not a sorrowful cloud in sight.
But the rains are coming,
And should be here by twilight.
A message I should not want to hear,
But have heard before.
I have given you my only key,
Then you went and locked my door.
Keeping me out of your life, out of your way.
Without a thought or even a kind word to say.
All I wanted was a chance,
To love and to live,
Happy and carefree,
And to you my heart I would give.
But it's over now.
Nothing to be said or done.
And it breaks my heart to see,
That you were not the one.
This fear of the bitter end.
But your voice was silent,
Your heart with no messages to send.
All like a clear bright day,
Not a sorrowful cloud in sight.
But the rains are coming,
And should be here by twilight.
A message I should not want to hear,
But have heard before.
I have given you my only key,
Then you went and locked my door.
Keeping me out of your life, out of your way.
Without a thought or even a kind word to say.
All I wanted was a chance,
To love and to live,
Happy and carefree,
And to you my heart I would give.
But it's over now.
Nothing to be said or done.
And it breaks my heart to see,
That you were not the one.
Patience
My feelings I kept inside,
For a long while I waited.
I was unsure of your feelings,
I tried to tell you, but then hesitated.
I thought you might laugh at me,
And say I was a fool.
When I imagined the worst of it,
To my heart you were cruel.
Then I realized I had to take a chance,
The music was slow, so we started to dance.
It felt so right with you in my arms,
Then you held me tighter, then I was a little alarmed.
I never thought things could be this way,
But with you holding my heart, I am here to stay.
For a long while I waited.
I was unsure of your feelings,
I tried to tell you, but then hesitated.
I thought you might laugh at me,
And say I was a fool.
When I imagined the worst of it,
To my heart you were cruel.
Then I realized I had to take a chance,
The music was slow, so we started to dance.
It felt so right with you in my arms,
Then you held me tighter, then I was a little alarmed.
I never thought things could be this way,
But with you holding my heart, I am here to stay.
Endless Dream
You touch my thoughts,
In the early hours of the day.
And I find myself silent,
Staring at the misty morning sunrise,
As the rays of dawn dance upon my face.
I can only dream of you.
You touch my thoughts,
In the evening hours of the day.
I still think of your love-
Kissing my heart with sweet tenderness,
I have never been so loved.
I still dream of you.
You touch my dreams,
In the endless still of night.
I feel your warmth, your heart
Beating along side of mine.
Destiny has brought us here,
Eternity will keep us together.
In the early hours of the day.
And I find myself silent,
Staring at the misty morning sunrise,
As the rays of dawn dance upon my face.
I can only dream of you.
You touch my thoughts,
In the evening hours of the day.
I still think of your love-
Kissing my heart with sweet tenderness,
I have never been so loved.
I still dream of you.
You touch my dreams,
In the endless still of night.
I feel your warmth, your heart
Beating along side of mine.
Destiny has brought us here,
Eternity will keep us together.
Fantasy Land
Sitting on the front porch,
Watching winter go by.
Snow covers the ground softly,
And those angels seem to fly.
The sun sets amidst the cold air,
The rays of light dance upon the ground.
Everything stands to silence,
Not a word, not a light, not a sound.
All is peaceful in the world tonight,
As the morning star shines so bright.
Nothing has ever been so wonderful to me,
Living in this fantasy land, free as can be.
Watching winter go by.
Snow covers the ground softly,
And those angels seem to fly.
The sun sets amidst the cold air,
The rays of light dance upon the ground.
Everything stands to silence,
Not a word, not a light, not a sound.
All is peaceful in the world tonight,
As the morning star shines so bright.
Nothing has ever been so wonderful to me,
Living in this fantasy land, free as can be.
Destiny
I lay out my hand,
And reach for your heart.
It's you I want to hold,
And nothing to tear us apart.
A soft touch of your body,
The sweet scent of you near,
I tell you how much I love you,
With gentle whispers in your ear.
And when I look at you with silence,
I can't help but see.
This beautiful woman I've known,
Wanting to be with me.
I've never known such happiness,
Each time I look into your eyes.
Forever we will be together,
And my love will never die.
And reach for your heart.
It's you I want to hold,
And nothing to tear us apart.
A soft touch of your body,
The sweet scent of you near,
I tell you how much I love you,
With gentle whispers in your ear.
And when I look at you with silence,
I can't help but see.
This beautiful woman I've known,
Wanting to be with me.
I've never known such happiness,
Each time I look into your eyes.
Forever we will be together,
And my love will never die.
My Ignorance
Always the last to know,
What a fool I've been.
I have seen the many signs,
But chose to ignore them.
I wish I could change your feelings,
I wish I could change his.
But your promise you broke,
Along with my heart.
Maybe I'm mistaken, Maybe I'm wrong.
I'll never know the answer,
Unless you tell me different.
What a fool I've been.
I have seen the many signs,
But chose to ignore them.
I wish I could change your feelings,
I wish I could change his.
But your promise you broke,
Along with my heart.
Maybe I'm mistaken, Maybe I'm wrong.
I'll never know the answer,
Unless you tell me different.
Monday, December 16, 2013
For You
At first I was hesitant of you,
My ignorance was playing it's part.
I saw you only with my eyes,
And shut off the feelings from my heart.
Then that one night it hit me,
As we were dancing so slow.
I found the direction to turn,
I knew where my heart would go.
Straight into your arms,
Is where I wanted to be.
Holding each other tight,
With your heart so close to me.
Now I want you to know,
Just how strongly I feel.
I'm giving my heart to you,
So this love can be for real.
My ignorance was playing it's part.
I saw you only with my eyes,
And shut off the feelings from my heart.
Then that one night it hit me,
As we were dancing so slow.
I found the direction to turn,
I knew where my heart would go.
Straight into your arms,
Is where I wanted to be.
Holding each other tight,
With your heart so close to me.
Now I want you to know,
Just how strongly I feel.
I'm giving my heart to you,
So this love can be for real.
Deceived
Why do you love me now,
Knowing you have to leave.
I have fallen in love with you,
But my heart you have deceived.
This love is real for me,
Something you may not feel.
Something not as serious,
But for me this is real.
We've shared each other's feelings,
Telling each other each day.
How I wish I could tell you this,
So hard I still hope and pray.
I don't want this to be over,
I never want us to be through.
All I want is your love,
And for your heart to be this true.
Knowing you have to leave.
I have fallen in love with you,
But my heart you have deceived.
This love is real for me,
Something you may not feel.
Something not as serious,
But for me this is real.
We've shared each other's feelings,
Telling each other each day.
How I wish I could tell you this,
So hard I still hope and pray.
I don't want this to be over,
I never want us to be through.
All I want is your love,
And for your heart to be this true.
Stolen Heart
Our soft and endless kiss,
The timeless loving moment.
To be with you forever,
Is the message my heart has sent.
Your smooth and slow caress,
A warm and gentle touch.
My fears are finally released,
Because I love you so much.
You've stolen my heart away,
With the softness of your eyes.
These feelings I have for you,
No longer can I hide.
With all the love you have,
My heart I promise to give.
Without your love to me,
My soul could no longer live.
The timeless loving moment.
To be with you forever,
Is the message my heart has sent.
Your smooth and slow caress,
A warm and gentle touch.
My fears are finally released,
Because I love you so much.
You've stolen my heart away,
With the softness of your eyes.
These feelings I have for you,
No longer can I hide.
With all the love you have,
My heart I promise to give.
Without your love to me,
My soul could no longer live.
Heaven in My Heart
A gentle scent, a beautiful thought.
Your presence is needed in every minute of my life.
The taste of your lips, the softness of your cheeks,
In your arms I could live forever.
When I close my eyes, I see you there.
I feel your touch, and I smell your perfume.
My heart melts and turns into sweet honey.
You have given me Heaven in my heart.
Your presence is needed in every minute of my life.
The taste of your lips, the softness of your cheeks,
In your arms I could live forever.
When I close my eyes, I see you there.
I feel your touch, and I smell your perfume.
My heart melts and turns into sweet honey.
You have given me Heaven in my heart.
My Last Love
Shadows in my heart,
Words can't say how much they hurt.
Taking away all the life in it,
Death is but a step too close.
The darkness is coming soon,
There's nothing I can do.
But accept the pain and die inside.
A darkened heart will be the final ending.
To love again....no, I can only die.
Words can't say how much they hurt.
Taking away all the life in it,
Death is but a step too close.
The darkness is coming soon,
There's nothing I can do.
But accept the pain and die inside.
A darkened heart will be the final ending.
To love again....no, I can only die.
Sharp Eyes
A split second,
A blink of an eye.
In this short time,
You can surely die.
The hum of a bullet,
Is all it will take.
When your living on the street,
Everything is at stake.
Shadows in the darkness,
Don't ever turn your back.
They'll take your pathetic life,
For just a milligram of crack.
Don't even think for a second,
That you've got one friend.
They'll leave you there to rot,
When their life starts to begin.
A blink of an eye.
In this short time,
You can surely die.
The hum of a bullet,
Is all it will take.
When your living on the street,
Everything is at stake.
Shadows in the darkness,
Don't ever turn your back.
They'll take your pathetic life,
For just a milligram of crack.
Don't even think for a second,
That you've got one friend.
They'll leave you there to rot,
When their life starts to begin.
Star-Crossed Dreamers
A thought arose from my dreams.
It stands directly in my path to your love.
And it points in another direction, to another path.
So I must follow.
My feet, my body, even my mind pull me on this path;
But still my eyes look back to you and cry for forgiveness.
I am sorry.
Some things were meant to fly, and some to swim.
This dream was never meant to come true.
No matter how many times I fell asleep.
I always woke up.....unhappy.
It stands directly in my path to your love.
And it points in another direction, to another path.
So I must follow.
My feet, my body, even my mind pull me on this path;
But still my eyes look back to you and cry for forgiveness.
I am sorry.
Some things were meant to fly, and some to swim.
This dream was never meant to come true.
No matter how many times I fell asleep.
I always woke up.....unhappy.
Beautiful Woman
An angel's breath,
Your loving soul.
Nothing can compare to,
The sweet love you hold.
Beauty is yours,
Body and mind.
Like no other I've seen,
So gentle and kind.
Heaven on earth,
Is what you are to me.
Your beauty has made me blind,
And I can no longer see.
To see your face again,
There's nothing I wouldn't do.
A miracle you are to me,
Because your love is so true.
Your loving soul.
Nothing can compare to,
The sweet love you hold.
Beauty is yours,
Body and mind.
Like no other I've seen,
So gentle and kind.
Heaven on earth,
Is what you are to me.
Your beauty has made me blind,
And I can no longer see.
To see your face again,
There's nothing I wouldn't do.
A miracle you are to me,
Because your love is so true.
Crying Out
A man in a room sits alone,
Abandoned and afraid,
Deserted by the world.
No one cares what he thinks,
No one cares what he does,
Neither does he.
He's lost his desire,
He's lost his will,
Why does he go on?
Not even he knows.
We pass this man by,
But pretend not to see him.
He's not supposed to be there,
No one is.
He is helpless,
But it's not his fault.
He can do nothing,
But sit in his room alone.
We can do nothing,
Let him be.
Abandoned and afraid,
Deserted by the world.
No one cares what he thinks,
No one cares what he does,
Neither does he.
He's lost his desire,
He's lost his will,
Why does he go on?
Not even he knows.
We pass this man by,
But pretend not to see him.
He's not supposed to be there,
No one is.
He is helpless,
But it's not his fault.
He can do nothing,
But sit in his room alone.
We can do nothing,
Let him be.
Lost
Lost from this world,
Lost in this time.
Can't find the meaning of this,
Why do I do these things?
Soon I will know what to do,
My soul does not know.
As in the trees I see the birds,
But no longer do they sing.
The songs of a bird once uplifted my skies,
New songs of my sorrow gently make you cry.
Lost in this time.
Can't find the meaning of this,
Why do I do these things?
Soon I will know what to do,
My soul does not know.
As in the trees I see the birds,
But no longer do they sing.
The songs of a bird once uplifted my skies,
New songs of my sorrow gently make you cry.
Still Trying
Last night as I held my pillow tight,
I wept underneath the pale moonlight.
Thinking of the things we used to do in the past,
Trying our best to make our sweet love last.
I think of all the things that make us laugh,
Like when you fall asleep in your long hot bath.
The memories we made I will never forget,
Ans always remember the very first time we met.
Your love has forever taken my heart away,
While my soul still cries for you to stay.
My only want is to have you here with me,
But for now I will live within our memories.
I wept underneath the pale moonlight.
Thinking of the things we used to do in the past,
Trying our best to make our sweet love last.
I think of all the things that make us laugh,
Like when you fall asleep in your long hot bath.
The memories we made I will never forget,
Ans always remember the very first time we met.
Your love has forever taken my heart away,
While my soul still cries for you to stay.
My only want is to have you here with me,
But for now I will live within our memories.
When Tomorrow Comes
I want to take this pain from you,
Give all your troubles to me.
I want you to be free from this world,
And whatever happens, let it be.
There's nothing you can do,
About what's already been done.
This was meant to be,
From this you cannot run.
Please, woman cry,
Your tears of happiness.
Please woman cry,
The tears of hurt and pain.
And when tomorrow comes,
The love here will be the same.
Give all your troubles to me.
I want you to be free from this world,
And whatever happens, let it be.
There's nothing you can do,
About what's already been done.
This was meant to be,
From this you cannot run.
Please, woman cry,
Your tears of happiness.
Please woman cry,
The tears of hurt and pain.
And when tomorrow comes,
The love here will be the same.
Regrets
If we talked one last time,
Would it change this anymore.
If we give it one more try,
Would we forget what was said before.
Those hurtful words that came running out,
Repeat again and again in my mind.
I wish I could take them all back,
And put them somewhere far behind.
I can only say how much I love you,
Without you knowing how I feel.
These words you have to trust me with,
Because the love I have for you is real.
Would it change this anymore.
If we give it one more try,
Would we forget what was said before.
Those hurtful words that came running out,
Repeat again and again in my mind.
I wish I could take them all back,
And put them somewhere far behind.
I can only say how much I love you,
Without you knowing how I feel.
These words you have to trust me with,
Because the love I have for you is real.
Awaiting You
The full moon shines bright,
Up above my weary head.
From all the paths we took,
This is where our love has led.
Onto a blind curve,
With no end in site.
Not knowing which way to go,
Nothing to guide us through the night.
As once we journeyed together,
Together through thick and thin.
Staying by each others side,
Right to the bitter end.
But your no longer with me,
Distance has kept us apart.
No one is here by my side,
No one is next to my heart.
How I miss you so much,
With your tender loving eyes.
I can imagine you here with me,
And when my eyes open, I can only cry.
My love will wait forever,
For the day that you return.
And when I have you in my arms,
The fire in our love will burn.
Up above my weary head.
From all the paths we took,
This is where our love has led.
Onto a blind curve,
With no end in site.
Not knowing which way to go,
Nothing to guide us through the night.
As once we journeyed together,
Together through thick and thin.
Staying by each others side,
Right to the bitter end.
But your no longer with me,
Distance has kept us apart.
No one is here by my side,
No one is next to my heart.
How I miss you so much,
With your tender loving eyes.
I can imagine you here with me,
And when my eyes open, I can only cry.
My love will wait forever,
For the day that you return.
And when I have you in my arms,
The fire in our love will burn.
The Dark Wind
Standing amongst the darkness,
Looking to find a light.
No one's here to guard me,
Or protect me from the night.
So scared and so afraid,
So timid and weak.
This soul I'm searching for,
I will no longer seek.
As the cold wind blows,
A chill runs down my spine.
The spirit I once held before,
I feel is no longer mine.
The hand of darkness takes me,
To the place I fear to go.
The silence finally arises,
And the dark wind blows.
Looking to find a light.
No one's here to guard me,
Or protect me from the night.
So scared and so afraid,
So timid and weak.
This soul I'm searching for,
I will no longer seek.
As the cold wind blows,
A chill runs down my spine.
The spirit I once held before,
I feel is no longer mine.
The hand of darkness takes me,
To the place I fear to go.
The silence finally arises,
And the dark wind blows.
Innocent Fears
A softly spoken word,
Is all I need to hear.
Something to reassure me,
From the feelings I often fear.
As innocent as they may seem,
Still I have to know.
How you feel about me,
And if you love me so.
My feelings haven't changed,
My heart will always be true.
My love will never die,
I will always belong to you.
Is all I need to hear.
Something to reassure me,
From the feelings I often fear.
As innocent as they may seem,
Still I have to know.
How you feel about me,
And if you love me so.
My feelings haven't changed,
My heart will always be true.
My love will never die,
I will always belong to you.
Day By Day
Lying through the early hours,
Watching the morning go by.
Every time I think of you,
A tear falls from my eye.
Sitting in the afternoon sun,
Drying those tears I wept.
Trying to get over these feelings,
That my heart should have kept.
Watching the sun go down,
Another day passes on.
Hopefully I'll be over you,
And accept that you're really gone.
Watching the morning go by.
Every time I think of you,
A tear falls from my eye.
Sitting in the afternoon sun,
Drying those tears I wept.
Trying to get over these feelings,
That my heart should have kept.
Watching the sun go down,
Another day passes on.
Hopefully I'll be over you,
And accept that you're really gone.
My Gift To You
I offer you my heart,
With all it's love inside.
The feelings I have for you,
I can no longer hide.
Please tell me that you will,
Accept these feelings I give.
Without your love for me,
I don't think I could live.
So please accept this offer,
This gift I give to you.
It comes straight from my heart,
To ensure my feelings are true.
With all it's love inside.
The feelings I have for you,
I can no longer hide.
Please tell me that you will,
Accept these feelings I give.
Without your love for me,
I don't think I could live.
So please accept this offer,
This gift I give to you.
It comes straight from my heart,
To ensure my feelings are true.
Standing At The Crossroads
The decisions in my life,
Are staring me in the face.
So many pieces to my puzzle,
That I cannot seem to place.
I'm standing at the crossroads,
Nobody but me.
The answers to my questions,
Only I can see.
One road leads to Heaven,
Standing in God's Grace.
The other leads to hell,
With satan in my face.
Now I have to choose,
Where I want to be...
I choose the road to Heaven,
So God can set me free.
Are staring me in the face.
So many pieces to my puzzle,
That I cannot seem to place.
I'm standing at the crossroads,
Nobody but me.
The answers to my questions,
Only I can see.
One road leads to Heaven,
Standing in God's Grace.
The other leads to hell,
With satan in my face.
Now I have to choose,
Where I want to be...
I choose the road to Heaven,
So God can set me free.
Holding You
Holding you in my arms,
Forever once again.
Is why I live and breathe,
Our love can have no end.
Holding you in my heart,
Staying so close to mine.
Keeping it there forever,
Until the end of time.
The softness of your lips,
The warmth of your touch.
Fills my eyes with tears,
Because I love you so much.
The sounds of your voice,
Are engraved in my mind.
Your beauty is the greatest I've seen,
Unlike any other kind.
Holding you in my arms,
With you here next to me.
Holding you in my heart,
Is where I want you to be.
Forever once again.
Is why I live and breathe,
Our love can have no end.
Holding you in my heart,
Staying so close to mine.
Keeping it there forever,
Until the end of time.
The softness of your lips,
The warmth of your touch.
Fills my eyes with tears,
Because I love you so much.
The sounds of your voice,
Are engraved in my mind.
Your beauty is the greatest I've seen,
Unlike any other kind.
Holding you in my arms,
With you here next to me.
Holding you in my heart,
Is where I want you to be.
Falling Tears
Tears when I cry,
Flow gently from my eye.
When I think of you,
I smile softly, and sigh.
Your whispers in my ear,
Filled my eyes with tears.
Words spoken so vividly,
Makes it seem like you were here.
And when the memories come back,
They get me slightly off track.
All I can think of is you,
And then my heart starts to crack.
How I miss you so much,
Your warm and gentle touch.
With the sweetnes of your lips,
My heart you have clutched.
While I'm wishing you were mine,
Until the end of time.
Tears fall from my cheek,
Forming my river called rhyme.
Flow gently from my eye.
When I think of you,
I smile softly, and sigh.
Your whispers in my ear,
Filled my eyes with tears.
Words spoken so vividly,
Makes it seem like you were here.
And when the memories come back,
They get me slightly off track.
All I can think of is you,
And then my heart starts to crack.
How I miss you so much,
Your warm and gentle touch.
With the sweetnes of your lips,
My heart you have clutched.
While I'm wishing you were mine,
Until the end of time.
Tears fall from my cheek,
Forming my river called rhyme.
Burned Heart
I loved you once,
And I thought you loved me.
But love made me blind,
And my heart couldn't see.
I gave you everything I had,
With nothing in return.
All I wanted was you,
But that was one lesson I learned.
Never to give my heart away,
Love is to be earned.
What I have is not free anymore,
Come too close and you'll get burned.
And I thought you loved me.
But love made me blind,
And my heart couldn't see.
I gave you everything I had,
With nothing in return.
All I wanted was you,
But that was one lesson I learned.
Never to give my heart away,
Love is to be earned.
What I have is not free anymore,
Come too close and you'll get burned.
Her Silence
I called her again.
But this time when she answered,
I could only hear her silence.
A silence shouting so loudly-
The deafness in my heart,
Opened it's ears.
But only to hear,
The cries of a wounded soul.
So much I learned,
From that silence.
And so many times,
It keeps me awake at night.
Somebody please,
Stop the noise.
So my heart can cry.
And cry it will.....
I cried for you,
All those nights.
I cried for you,
Cried for you,
-Wept and bled for you.
I Cry For You!
I Cry For You!
But this time when she answered,
I could only hear her silence.
A silence shouting so loudly-
The deafness in my heart,
Opened it's ears.
But only to hear,
The cries of a wounded soul.
So much I learned,
From that silence.
And so many times,
It keeps me awake at night.
Somebody please,
Stop the noise.
So my heart can cry.
And cry it will.....
I cried for you,
All those nights.
I cried for you,
Cried for you,
-Wept and bled for you.
I Cry For You!
I Cry For You!
Love In Focus
My Love is in focus,
I can see clearly.
I look away,
I look back,
Blurred is my vision.
Bringing it back,
Years of focusing,
I look away,
I lose it all.
I can see clearly.
I look away,
I look back,
Blurred is my vision.
Bringing it back,
Years of focusing,
I look away,
I lose it all.
Feathers Of Love
Once I was free,
Free as a bird,
I could fly so high,
Just floating through the sky.
But I've lost my wings,
No longer can I sing.
My notes are muffled,
And swallowed by the clouds.
Free as a bird,
I could fly so high,
Just floating through the sky.
But I've lost my wings,
No longer can I sing.
My notes are muffled,
And swallowed by the clouds.
Revelation
Devil's night,
Nothing goes right,
Evil is everywhere,
And good is out of sight.
But burn they will,
Like meat on a grill,
For they will all die,
And be buried in a hill.
Rise from the dead,
My tormented slaves.
No longer will you live in,
Your pitiful graves.
Go and rule the earth,
For a thousand years,
Then you will suffer,
And weep chemical tears.
Our glory has come,
The evil is gone.
The night is over,
In comes the dawn.
Nothing goes right,
Evil is everywhere,
And good is out of sight.
But burn they will,
Like meat on a grill,
For they will all die,
And be buried in a hill.
Rise from the dead,
My tormented slaves.
No longer will you live in,
Your pitiful graves.
Go and rule the earth,
For a thousand years,
Then you will suffer,
And weep chemical tears.
Our glory has come,
The evil is gone.
The night is over,
In comes the dawn.
The Questions I Have
Do I love you?
Do you love me?
Of these questions I ask,
The answers I cannot see.
And I ask myself why,
Why all of this trouble for you?
Because the reward I get,
For you to love me too.
But your love is sometimes questioned,
Are those feelings really there?
Will you want my love?
Or do you even care.
Am I in your thoughts?
How do you feel for me?
I need to know your feelings,
And if this was meant to be.
Do you love me?
Of these questions I ask,
The answers I cannot see.
And I ask myself why,
Why all of this trouble for you?
Because the reward I get,
For you to love me too.
But your love is sometimes questioned,
Are those feelings really there?
Will you want my love?
Or do you even care.
Am I in your thoughts?
How do you feel for me?
I need to know your feelings,
And if this was meant to be.
Deciding Our Love
We were friends at the beginning,
Sharing each others thoughts.
We knew it wasn't serious,
There was no love to be sought.
But then I got to know you,
And we were having so much fun.
So we got a little closer,
And I thought you were the one.
Now I'm a little confused,
On what I'm supposed to do.
Should I just stay friends,
Or give my heart to you.
I've tried to decide on my own,
But there's one thing I can't see.
It's what you have inside,
And how you feel for me.
I will give my heart to you,
With all the love I hold.
The feelings you have for me,
I hope will soon unfold.
Sharing each others thoughts.
We knew it wasn't serious,
There was no love to be sought.
But then I got to know you,
And we were having so much fun.
So we got a little closer,
And I thought you were the one.
Now I'm a little confused,
On what I'm supposed to do.
Should I just stay friends,
Or give my heart to you.
I've tried to decide on my own,
But there's one thing I can't see.
It's what you have inside,
And how you feel for me.
I will give my heart to you,
With all the love I hold.
The feelings you have for me,
I hope will soon unfold.
Lost Without You
My heart beats a little faster,
Each time I close my eyes.
I can see you standing there,
With beauty too great to hide.
And when your here in my arms,
My wishes have come true.
The one thing I can't take,
Is being away form you.
For when your not there,
I don't know what to do.
It tears me apart,
My heart cries out for you.
So stay with me forever,
And forever I'll be true.
'Cause when we're not together,
My heart is lost without you.
Each time I close my eyes.
I can see you standing there,
With beauty too great to hide.
And when your here in my arms,
My wishes have come true.
The one thing I can't take,
Is being away form you.
For when your not there,
I don't know what to do.
It tears me apart,
My heart cries out for you.
So stay with me forever,
And forever I'll be true.
'Cause when we're not together,
My heart is lost without you.
The Light Of My Pen
Shadows from my pen,
Can change a person's life.
It can make someone love,
Or cut them like a knife.
Shadows from the light,
Emersed from the dawn.
Seen by the eyes of many,
Inspiring to write songs.
The blackness of the shadow,
With red, black, and blue.
Can write the words of hate,
Or the words of love to you.
Can change a person's life.
It can make someone love,
Or cut them like a knife.
Shadows from the light,
Emersed from the dawn.
Seen by the eyes of many,
Inspiring to write songs.
The blackness of the shadow,
With red, black, and blue.
Can write the words of hate,
Or the words of love to you.
Kept From Your Heart
The love you lost before,
Has torn you apart.
Your're not letting me in,
You've kept me from your heart.
I know that your afraid,
Of all that hurt and pain.
But what we could have,
There's only love to gain.
I'm not the love you lost,
I won't leave you at all.
Stop shutting me out,
And building all these walls.
All I want is your love,
I want to be close to your heart.
Whatever hurt you before,
Is tearing me apart.
Has torn you apart.
Your're not letting me in,
You've kept me from your heart.
I know that your afraid,
Of all that hurt and pain.
But what we could have,
There's only love to gain.
I'm not the love you lost,
I won't leave you at all.
Stop shutting me out,
And building all these walls.
All I want is your love,
I want to be close to your heart.
Whatever hurt you before,
Is tearing me apart.
Love Will Set Us Free
Don't hold back the feelings,
The feelings you have for me.
Give me all you have,
And love will set us free.
Don't hold back your love,
Your love that shines so true.
Don't be afraid to tell me,
I will always love you.
I will never let you go,
We will never be kept apart.
You will always be with me,
Forever in my heart.
I want this love to last,
Make it last with me.
Don't hold back your feelings,
Love will set us free.
The feelings you have for me.
Give me all you have,
And love will set us free.
Don't hold back your love,
Your love that shines so true.
Don't be afraid to tell me,
I will always love you.
I will never let you go,
We will never be kept apart.
You will always be with me,
Forever in my heart.
I want this love to last,
Make it last with me.
Don't hold back your feelings,
Love will set us free.
Mouths of Hate
Hate and needless anger,
Walls built with fear.
Ignorance is the cement,
That fills it up with tears.
Our mouths used as weapons,
Shooting them off like guns.
Hurting not only the parents,
But the daughters and the sons.
Our knowledge is the answer,
The answer to stop the hate.
As long as we want to learn,
It will never be too late.
Walls built with fear.
Ignorance is the cement,
That fills it up with tears.
Our mouths used as weapons,
Shooting them off like guns.
Hurting not only the parents,
But the daughters and the sons.
Our knowledge is the answer,
The answer to stop the hate.
As long as we want to learn,
It will never be too late.
Here In The Silence
Here in the silence,
I sit and think of you.
Pictures flash in my head,
Of when our love was new.
So sweet and innocent,
Both of our hearts were touched.
When I'm in the silence,
How I miss it so much.
My heart aches with pain,
The pain that doesn't go.
The only cure for it,
Only you would know.
So tell me once again,
The words you say so true.
Say them with your heart,
So I'll come back to you.
I sit and think of you.
Pictures flash in my head,
Of when our love was new.
So sweet and innocent,
Both of our hearts were touched.
When I'm in the silence,
How I miss it so much.
My heart aches with pain,
The pain that doesn't go.
The only cure for it,
Only you would know.
So tell me once again,
The words you say so true.
Say them with your heart,
So I'll come back to you.
Leaving This World
Leaving this world,
Is a peaceful thing to do.
Give your soul to God,
And he'll take care of you.
Show him that you love him,
And all his children too.
Then you will see,
That he loves you too.
He'll take you up to Heaven,
Like a bird under his wing.
And you'll cry when you hear,
The heavenly angels sing.
So when you feel afraid,
Or even a little blue.
Don't ever forget,
That God loves you too.
Is a peaceful thing to do.
Give your soul to God,
And he'll take care of you.
Show him that you love him,
And all his children too.
Then you will see,
That he loves you too.
He'll take you up to Heaven,
Like a bird under his wing.
And you'll cry when you hear,
The heavenly angels sing.
So when you feel afraid,
Or even a little blue.
Don't ever forget,
That God loves you too.
Come Back To Me
I've met you once again,
The woman in my life.
Seeing you again,
Cuts me like a knife.
Hurting so deeply,
Driving me insane.
Stay with me now,
And stop all that pain.
Come back to me now,
Love me forever,
The two things I wish,
I'll never say never.
So if you come back,
I won't turn you down.
I'll hold you in my arms,
And never set you down.
The woman in my life.
Seeing you again,
Cuts me like a knife.
Hurting so deeply,
Driving me insane.
Stay with me now,
And stop all that pain.
Come back to me now,
Love me forever,
The two things I wish,
I'll never say never.
So if you come back,
I won't turn you down.
I'll hold you in my arms,
And never set you down.
Angel Of The Night
Angel of the night,
Soaring through the sky.
With your silver wingtips,
Lifting you so high.
You overcame the blackness,
Given to you from the night.
Shining like a star,
Giving off all your light.
Your presence overcomes me,
It brings me to my knees.
Let me go with you,
Oh I beg you please.
Show me the path,
That leads to your heart.
So we will never,
Ever be kept apart.
Soaring through the sky.
With your silver wingtips,
Lifting you so high.
You overcame the blackness,
Given to you from the night.
Shining like a star,
Giving off all your light.
Your presence overcomes me,
It brings me to my knees.
Let me go with you,
Oh I beg you please.
Show me the path,
That leads to your heart.
So we will never,
Ever be kept apart.
Shining Star
She looks so lonely,
Appearing before the night.
Miles and miles away,
But still shining bright.
Above the wavy reds,
Into the shades of blue.
The only one to be seen,
When her light shines so true.
The darkness is coming now,
The others will be here soon.
All her friends in the sky,
The clouds, the stars, and the moon.
I wish I could tell her,
How beautiful she is to me.
How I pray each night,
For God to set her free.
Appearing before the night.
Miles and miles away,
But still shining bright.
Above the wavy reds,
Into the shades of blue.
The only one to be seen,
When her light shines so true.
The darkness is coming now,
The others will be here soon.
All her friends in the sky,
The clouds, the stars, and the moon.
I wish I could tell her,
How beautiful she is to me.
How I pray each night,
For God to set her free.
Those Eyes
Those eyes are like stars,
And stars are in the sky.
Shining so true and bright,
All I can do is cry.
To be away from those eyes,
Is what I couldn't do.
I would do anything in the world,
Just to look at you.
You free me from my thoughts,
You make me drift away.
I want to hold you in my arms,
And forever stay that way.
And stars are in the sky.
Shining so true and bright,
All I can do is cry.
To be away from those eyes,
Is what I couldn't do.
I would do anything in the world,
Just to look at you.
You free me from my thoughts,
You make me drift away.
I want to hold you in my arms,
And forever stay that way.
In Love With You
I thought this feeling was over,
Never to be heard from again.
Then you walked into my life,
And I fell in love again.
But this time it's different,
This time it's true.
Not a minute goes by,
I don't think of you.
Your beauty is timeless,
It drives me insane.
To live without you,
Is like standing in the rain.
Cold and dark, without any care,
That's something I just can't bare.
So love me forever,
And forever I'll be true.
Never forgetting a moment,
To be in Love with you.
Never to be heard from again.
Then you walked into my life,
And I fell in love again.
But this time it's different,
This time it's true.
Not a minute goes by,
I don't think of you.
Your beauty is timeless,
It drives me insane.
To live without you,
Is like standing in the rain.
Cold and dark, without any care,
That's something I just can't bare.
So love me forever,
And forever I'll be true.
Never forgetting a moment,
To be in Love with you.
Melodies
Music, sound, rhythm, rhyme;
Chords, harmonies, lyrics,
Dimes, dollars, cents, bills;
Ones, tens, twenties,
Thrills, chills, movie, money;
Popcorn, candy, sugar,
Honey, bees, nest, stings,
Buzz, hum, whiz,
Wings, eagles, birds, fly;
Land, crash, death,
Cry, sorrow, mourn, pain;
Black, gray, purple,
Rain, water, thirst, life;
Live it, enjoy it, do it, end it.
Chords, harmonies, lyrics,
Dimes, dollars, cents, bills;
Ones, tens, twenties,
Thrills, chills, movie, money;
Popcorn, candy, sugar,
Honey, bees, nest, stings,
Buzz, hum, whiz,
Wings, eagles, birds, fly;
Land, crash, death,
Cry, sorrow, mourn, pain;
Black, gray, purple,
Rain, water, thirst, life;
Live it, enjoy it, do it, end it.
Clutter In My Mind
So much to do,
In so little time.
Why do I put so much,
Clutter in my mind.
It's all just a blur,
Can't pick anything out.
It doesn't make any sense,
What's it all about?
It's all happening to fast,
It's way too much to do.
Piling one thing on another,
Without thinking it through.
They keep telling me,
To write it all down.
Instead of listening to them,
I ignore 'em all and frown.
In so little time.
Why do I put so much,
Clutter in my mind.
It's all just a blur,
Can't pick anything out.
It doesn't make any sense,
What's it all about?
It's all happening to fast,
It's way too much to do.
Piling one thing on another,
Without thinking it through.
They keep telling me,
To write it all down.
Instead of listening to them,
I ignore 'em all and frown.
For Mothers
Mothers are speacial,
Mothers are sweet.
No one can accomplish,
Their amazing feats.
Mothers are amazing,
Above all the rest.
Spending to much time,
Cleaning up your mess.
They bail you out of trouble,
Bring you to practice on time.
And when your short on cash,
They give you their last dime.
It was your lovely mothers,
So don't complain or whine.
Mothers are sweet.
No one can accomplish,
Their amazing feats.
Mothers are amazing,
Above all the rest.
Spending to much time,
Cleaning up your mess.
They bail you out of trouble,
Bring you to practice on time.
And when your short on cash,
They give you their last dime.
It was your lovely mothers,
So don't complain or whine.
For Erin
Her voice is strong,
Her heart is good.
She tries so hard,
To be understood.
She has long brown hair,
And teddy bear eyes.
She listens with a careful ear,
And blocks out all the lies.
The first thing she does,
After she hurts somebody.
Is not to laugh in their face,
But instead to say "I'm sorry".
But when she tells everyone,
Her side of the story.
All they do is tell jokes,
And try to be gross and gory.
No one really listens,
No one really tries.
To hear her words of courage,
I think they're pretty wise.
Her heart is good.
She tries so hard,
To be understood.
She has long brown hair,
And teddy bear eyes.
She listens with a careful ear,
And blocks out all the lies.
The first thing she does,
After she hurts somebody.
Is not to laugh in their face,
But instead to say "I'm sorry".
But when she tells everyone,
Her side of the story.
All they do is tell jokes,
And try to be gross and gory.
No one really listens,
No one really tries.
To hear her words of courage,
I think they're pretty wise.
For Aimee'
With a smile on her face,
And tears in her eyes.
The happiness she has,
Is too great to disguise.
She's a woman of beauty,
And a woman of pride.
But nothing can ever make,
Her sweet love die.
Showing her abilities,
Thinking above the rest.
Always trying to prove,
She can be the best.
Sticking it out,
Through thick and thin.
Always wanting to make it,
To the bitter end.
And tears in her eyes.
The happiness she has,
Is too great to disguise.
She's a woman of beauty,
And a woman of pride.
But nothing can ever make,
Her sweet love die.
Showing her abilities,
Thinking above the rest.
Always trying to prove,
She can be the best.
Sticking it out,
Through thick and thin.
Always wanting to make it,
To the bitter end.
Memories
Scenery from far away lands,
Pictures from ages ago.
Some distorted, some complete,
But all seperate in my mind.
Like a jigsaw puzzle,
With pieces you can't seem to fit.
All there creating music,
Each memory playing it's part.
All working as one to create
A symphony of thought,
Not to be heard all at once.
Pictures from ages ago.
Some distorted, some complete,
But all seperate in my mind.
Like a jigsaw puzzle,
With pieces you can't seem to fit.
All there creating music,
Each memory playing it's part.
All working as one to create
A symphony of thought,
Not to be heard all at once.
Alone In The Desert
Alone in the desert,
nobody but me.
Looking all around,
Sand is what I see.
Alone in the desert,
Can hardly stand the heat.
Blistering brown sand,
Scorching both my feet.
I can see an oasis,
With water and green trees.
But everything out here,
Is not what it seems.
Out of the desert,
After all the sun.
I beat the desert,
The game is won.
nobody but me.
Looking all around,
Sand is what I see.
Alone in the desert,
Can hardly stand the heat.
Blistering brown sand,
Scorching both my feet.
I can see an oasis,
With water and green trees.
But everything out here,
Is not what it seems.
Out of the desert,
After all the sun.
I beat the desert,
The game is won.
White Stallion
Sounds of Thunder,
Comes rolling through the valley.
A wild army of blackness,
Marches onward 'till no end.
Amidst the wall of darkness,
Lies a sparkle of light.
A white bolt of lightning,
On a black cloud.
A coat of white silk,
Travels ahead of the rest.
On his way, over distant lands,
Not having to worry.
But what lies ahead,
On his distant journey.
The rest follow behind,
The leader of the pack.
Awaiting every command,
Of the White Stallion.
Comes rolling through the valley.
A wild army of blackness,
Marches onward 'till no end.
Amidst the wall of darkness,
Lies a sparkle of light.
A white bolt of lightning,
On a black cloud.
A coat of white silk,
Travels ahead of the rest.
On his way, over distant lands,
Not having to worry.
But what lies ahead,
On his distant journey.
The rest follow behind,
The leader of the pack.
Awaiting every command,
Of the White Stallion.
On The Beach
The sugar-like sand,
The white-capped waves.
The sound of the ocean,
The beach is what they crave.
The melody of silence,
And the harmony of sound.
Work together with the wind,
Blowing all around.
Shifting sand,
Rolling rocks.
All of them moving
To the beat of nature's clock.
One by one,
The shells move in time.
I wish I could see them,
And their colors in their prime.
The white-capped waves.
The sound of the ocean,
The beach is what they crave.
The melody of silence,
And the harmony of sound.
Work together with the wind,
Blowing all around.
Shifting sand,
Rolling rocks.
All of them moving
To the beat of nature's clock.
One by one,
The shells move in time.
I wish I could see them,
And their colors in their prime.
Wind
Wind is a traveler.
Exploring space and time.
Not stopping for a moments rest,
Constantly moving through each obstacle,
twisting and turning,
Hurling itself forward,
Not knowing where to turn-
Or which direction to go in.
The four brothers one in the same,
Creating or destroying,
Reminding us of their mighty force.
Exploring space and time.
Not stopping for a moments rest,
Constantly moving through each obstacle,
twisting and turning,
Hurling itself forward,
Not knowing where to turn-
Or which direction to go in.
The four brothers one in the same,
Creating or destroying,
Reminding us of their mighty force.
Victim Of The Beast
The enormous strides of power and
Strength flow through his body.
The pearl-like teeth easily
Rip through tender flesh.
His nails, black as night,
Cut like a razor blade
With tremendous force.
His enormous eyes could hypnotize you
For an instant, and then he attacks.
Waving his powerful paws,
Swatting at your every move.
Beating and biting,
Waiting for the slightest weakness
For him to concentrate on.
Then, like a savage,
leaves you for his next victim,
of the Beast.
Strength flow through his body.
The pearl-like teeth easily
Rip through tender flesh.
His nails, black as night,
Cut like a razor blade
With tremendous force.
His enormous eyes could hypnotize you
For an instant, and then he attacks.
Waving his powerful paws,
Swatting at your every move.
Beating and biting,
Waiting for the slightest weakness
For him to concentrate on.
Then, like a savage,
leaves you for his next victim,
of the Beast.
Through The Ocean
Deep gloom; Shadowland they call it.
A world of eternal drifting,
Through the cold abyss and dreary valleys.
Lo, a sparkle;
A glimpse of light
Through the cloud of dimness,
Shining bright on the dark underworld.
The world that knows no happiness,
Yet, the surface is filled with joy.
Exotic and mystic;
The shallowness of the waters flourish,
Tropical creatures that dance-
In the fearsome ocean.
A world of eternal drifting,
Through the cold abyss and dreary valleys.
Lo, a sparkle;
A glimpse of light
Through the cloud of dimness,
Shining bright on the dark underworld.
The world that knows no happiness,
Yet, the surface is filled with joy.
Exotic and mystic;
The shallowness of the waters flourish,
Tropical creatures that dance-
In the fearsome ocean.
Stars In The Night
The silence starts
To fill the air.
Nature takes over as
The world sleeps once again.
The stars start to glisten,
Each one having it's own responsibility,
But all working as one.
Each one shining the moment
It had once before.
Forever repeating themselves,
Blazing through the skies waiting
For their turn to emerge
Out of their shells of time.
To fill the air.
Nature takes over as
The world sleeps once again.
The stars start to glisten,
Each one having it's own responsibility,
But all working as one.
Each one shining the moment
It had once before.
Forever repeating themselves,
Blazing through the skies waiting
For their turn to emerge
Out of their shells of time.
In The Forest
The smell of pine flows
Through the darkened forest.
The pine needles trinkle
To the moist, soft floor.
As the moon grows black,
The shadows of the monstrous
Trees leave dark shapes on the
Damp, crumpled wood.
Small creatures scamper through
The night searching for any food
They can find, and take it back
On their long journey through the
Maze of trees and fields.
With a memory that last a
Lifetime, they find their way home.
Through the darkened forest.
The pine needles trinkle
To the moist, soft floor.
As the moon grows black,
The shadows of the monstrous
Trees leave dark shapes on the
Damp, crumpled wood.
Small creatures scamper through
The night searching for any food
They can find, and take it back
On their long journey through the
Maze of trees and fields.
With a memory that last a
Lifetime, they find their way home.
The Eagle
Soaring high, searching through
The clouds for freedom,
From the burdens of the world.
Escaping to the mountaintops,
Skimming the desolate ocean,
Wandering endlessly watching
Time pass by from above.
Peering through the clouds,
Flying higher and higher, then
Majestically floating across the sky,
To find it's way to the nest
Of the Eagle.
The clouds for freedom,
From the burdens of the world.
Escaping to the mountaintops,
Skimming the desolate ocean,
Wandering endlessly watching
Time pass by from above.
Peering through the clouds,
Flying higher and higher, then
Majestically floating across the sky,
To find it's way to the nest
Of the Eagle.
Clouds
Floating endlessly through
The bright blue sky.
Snow-capped or filled with darkness,
Expanding every second, minute,
Or hour of the day.
Pictures form and then disappear.
Shapes shifting, twisting and
Turning through the sun-filled sky.
Creating rain and snow, carrying
Misery and happiness through
The land of God's children.
The bright blue sky.
Snow-capped or filled with darkness,
Expanding every second, minute,
Or hour of the day.
Pictures form and then disappear.
Shapes shifting, twisting and
Turning through the sun-filled sky.
Creating rain and snow, carrying
Misery and happiness through
The land of God's children.
Angel On My Shoulder
I've got an angel on my shoulder,
To guard me from all sin.
He's there to give me protection,
From all the dangers within.
My angel keeps me company,
I talk to him a lot.
While he draws circles on my neck,
And plays connect the dots.
Many people ask me,
How did he get to be there.
I tell them I prayed for him,
But all they do is glare.
We like to stick together,
Together through thick and thin.
And he always wants me to make it,
Right to the bitter end.
He's there when I need him,
He's there when I pray.
I wish he would sit on my shoulder,
And always want to stay.
To guard me from all sin.
He's there to give me protection,
From all the dangers within.
My angel keeps me company,
I talk to him a lot.
While he draws circles on my neck,
And plays connect the dots.
Many people ask me,
How did he get to be there.
I tell them I prayed for him,
But all they do is glare.
We like to stick together,
Together through thick and thin.
And he always wants me to make it,
Right to the bitter end.
He's there when I need him,
He's there when I pray.
I wish he would sit on my shoulder,
And always want to stay.
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